[So you're scared. The way Lobelia smiles isn't very kind, but it's not like Haruka can see it when he's cast his gaze downward. How very unfortunate.]
[What a gentle boy Haruka is, trying to think so kindly of him when he really ought to save his energy for someone worth his concern. All the same, Lobelia will gladly take his misplaced compassion.]
Hm... Where might this be coming from, Cher? Not only have you refused to concern yourself with your own safety, but now you wish to offer yourself up as a sac de boxe as a means to... what? Keep me occupied? Distracted?
No, nothing like that. I don't... know if you actually want to hurt anyone, but...
[He shrugs.]
I'm used to people who only want to use people and throw them away when they're done with them. That's just how it is. I feel like everyone else needs a break from whatever probably awful shit they've had to deal with, so...
If someone has to hurt, or get taken advantage of, or... whatever, it might as well be the person who doesn't really matter in this place. I can handle it.
[Or he thinks he can, despite how delicate he can be at times.]
...Now now, there's really no need to debase yourself, Cher. You're not as useless as you seem to think.
[It isn't as if Haruka's offer is coming from anyplace but one of barebones self-worth, otherwise Lobelia might take him up on the offer. As it stands, he doesn't care to grant anyone their death wish. Where would the fun be in that?]
In this place, our lives are all of equal value, yet that means little! Someone like you must survive to share your talent with the world! Surely it is your place to go on living while those who are moindre die off one by one.
Mm, and yet you felt it necessary to ask me such a frightening question?
[Can be really believe that Haruka isn't one of the people who sees him as a bad man? Regardless, Lobelia certainly doesn't look bothered. That's all that really matters, right?]
You don't trust me either. That much is plain to see. In fact, I get the feeling you're afraid of me...
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Do you truly think me that cruel, Haruka?
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[He wants to think the best of Lobelia, even if heβs so odd.
More then that, thoughβ¦]
β¦But if there is anyone you want to hurt, it might be better if it was me instead.
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Hm... Where might this be coming from, Cher? Not only have you refused to concern yourself with your own safety, but now you wish to offer yourself up as a sac de boxe as a means to... what? Keep me occupied? Distracted?
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[He shrugs.]
I'm used to people who only want to use people and throw them away when they're done with them. That's just how it is. I feel like everyone else needs a break from whatever probably awful shit they've had to deal with, so...
If someone has to hurt, or get taken advantage of, or... whatever, it might as well be the person who doesn't really matter in this place. I can handle it.
[Or he thinks he can, despite how delicate he can be at times.]
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[It isn't as if Haruka's offer is coming from anyplace but one of barebones self-worth, otherwise Lobelia might take him up on the offer. As it stands, he doesn't care to grant anyone their death wish. Where would the fun be in that?]
In this place, our lives are all of equal value, yet that means little! Someone like you must survive to share your talent with the world! Surely it is your place to go on living while those who are moindre die off one by one.
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Are you⦠actually thinking of hurting someone, Lobelia-san?
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Non, but if you continue to ask, I might just change my mind.
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S-sorry, Lobelia-san. I didnβt mean to imply anything bad about you.
[He ducks his head.]
I really donβt think youβre as bad as everyone else seems to, even if you say strange things.
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[Can be really believe that Haruka isn't one of the people who sees him as a bad man? Regardless, Lobelia certainly doesn't look bothered. That's all that really matters, right?]
You don't trust me either. That much is plain to see. In fact, I get the feeling you're afraid of me...
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[It absolutely is.]
Itβs justβ¦ hard to believe all you want is to listen to me. Thatβs not how it usually goes, so I just assumed you have to want more.
[So much of his life has just been being used, that it only seems natural that Lobelia would want to use him, too.]