[He feels like someone has put a bright spotlight onto him. A magnifying glass to burn him away. His hands are trembling now, caught between his kneejerk reflexes to turn and leave and deny and the need to just get it over with, now.]
[But how does he feel? Does he actually even know. Lobelia wants to hear it. Irritating, hateful, impossible Lobelia. He's shaking, too. Vegilius wants to stop him from shaking. Who is making you shake, so? Ah, of course its him.]
[If I give word to it, if I make it real, then that will seal his fate. Then I'll have to turn and stare at the sun until it burns out my eyes or burns out himself. The flow will carry on. He will be swept up in the current. That is that, and this is this.]
[And then Lobelia's words suddenly come, as easy as anything.]
[Humans are hypocritical creatures by virtue of their very being. Moreover, you are a hypocrite. You may not want to hold others close to your heart, but refusing to acknowledge that you have does not make those feelings simply disappear.]
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[He feels like someone has put a bright spotlight onto him. A magnifying glass to burn him away. His hands are trembling now, caught between his kneejerk reflexes to turn and leave and deny and the need to just get it over with, now.]
[But how does he feel? Does he actually even know. Lobelia wants to hear it. Irritating, hateful, impossible Lobelia. He's shaking, too. Vegilius wants to stop him from shaking. Who is making you shake, so? Ah, of course its him.]
[He always causes problems like this, doesn't he? Irritating, hateful, impossible Vergilius.]
I...
[If I give word to it, if I make it real, then that will seal his fate. Then I'll have to turn and stare at the sun until it burns out my eyes or burns out himself. The flow will carry on. He will be swept up in the current. That is that, and this is this.]
[And then Lobelia's words suddenly come, as easy as anything.]
[Humans are hypocritical creatures by virtue of their very being. Moreover, you are a hypocrite. You may not want to hold others close to your heart, but refusing to acknowledge that you have does not make those feelings simply disappear.]