[This is it: a new type of pain, condemnation in a way he's never been condemned before. Lobelia's smile pulls nostalgic, wry, when Vergilius' hand grips his throat.
That warmth just now? That intimacy? Gone, but Vergilius burns all the brighter, hotter than any sun. If hell is too good for him, perhaps his very soul should be tossed into the pyre and wholly eliminated. If anyone can show him such mercy, won't it be his angel?
Beneath that rough, calloused hand, Lobelia's fingers briefly tremble.]
Ah, you think so lowly of me... but even I am aware of that fact, Vergilius. Nothing awaits me in the afterlife: not even l'enfer. I knew happiness once, and I crushed it into nothing.
[All that remains of Lobelia's parents are the sounds of their destruction, but even those are no longer in his possession. On this island, and for the first time in his life, Lobelia is entirely alone.]
I won't find it again. That jewel slipped through my grasp long ago.
[His fingers around the other's neck bring him right against that carotid - and with the thrum of the other's blood underneath, it reminds him of earlier, when he had been asked to bite down on it. There's a reckless urge to do so, one that he easily tamps down under cold, hard irritation, but one that was there, regardless. A bite not for pleasure, but to let the man exsanguinate and be released of any possible ounce of warmth this life has granted him.]
[It makes him release his fingers, and the statements make him still for a moment. This sounds so self-perceptive that it almost shocks him - where was the man who writhed in pleasure on the beach, or had told him he would be a thief to steal away the happiness he once experienced?]
[He stares down, finally letting both of his hands fall to his sides. Still straddling. Unsure where to walk, or fall, or land.]
What do you want me to say? Good for you? Good for your self-awareness? [Would you even think to repent, like me?] Tch. That "jewel"...
[He falls quiet at that, feeling distant.]
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[What's keeping Vergilius from killing him now? The idea of Lobelia being free from a life void of any genuine happiness? Hell is too good for him, but in a way, he's already living it. Happiness won't find him in this life, and surely Vergilius knows that. Surely his refusal to grant him everlasting pain is more merciful than he deserves.
Regardless, Lobelia's hands come up to seek out Vergilius' hands once more and fit them to his throat. What might it feel like to die? What would it look like? Sound like?]
Mm, your first mistake was thinking there is anything left for me to expect from you.
[There's a cold resignation in Lobelia's voice. One that chills right down to the bones, as oddly serene as it is alarming.]
Finish your thought, Vergilius. My patience is not infinite.
[What about that jewel? Tell him again how he'll never hold it in his hands. Lobelia expects to be told nothing less.]
[His hands grasp around the other's throat, guided there by the man himself. Before, he had wanted to rub it all in to the other man's face. Even in this state of misery, he understood things Lobelia never would. His fingers clench, and there's an odd sensation that comes over him. It's as if his hands belong there. A puzzle piece slotted into another.]
[The prompting makes his muscles tense - he starts to squeeze, leaning over with those characteristic bright eyes. That jewel, those jewels, small hands held in his, now never to return, shattered into oblivion-]
I... [He starts, stops. The voice cracks in his throat, like something fragile being pushed to its limits.] That jewel...
[That serene voice makes his skin crawl. He would prefer the writhing, the moans, the little perverted gasps. Don't be like this. If you've given up, what does that mean...?]
...I was loved. [His thumbs press up against the other's chin, his mouth twisted in a scowl.] I was loved, and I loved in turn. Do you think you'll ever have that? Do you want a thing like that?
Really, he didn't need to force the truth out past Vergilius' lips to know what kept him from spitting it out. In a way, it's almost funny. Not that long ago, Lobelia would've savored his very private pain, but now?
Now, those hands around his throat are the only things keeping that cold, hard lump in place. Such an uncomfortable feeling, one Lobelia doesn't care to put a name to. Loss is never something he wanted to acknowledge the weight of, but he sees himself reflected in those burning red eyes and can feel that loss keenly.
Is this loss his? Is it Vergilius'? The lack of distinction is perhaps the least surprising part of all of it. As an ouroboros is destined to remain entangled forevermore, it seems they won't be able to escape one another now that they've sunk in their teeth.
It's rare for Lobelia to sigh, for there to be a tremble in his voice. He'll blame it on the hands around his neck, squeezing them tighter still. Holding them.]
You were the one to tell me that I'll never know happiness. You were the first.
[And if I have given up, what does that mean for you? One more life snuffed out, nothing more.]
Isn't it often the case that we can't get what we desire? You should be happy, Vergilius, knowing your lesson finally sunk in.
[Or else, he's going to lean back on that singular wish. That honest dream. That beautiful idea of a world destroyed to make another. Its not that he's against it, or he would wholeheartedly prevent himself from doing it. He's on the precipice. But someone back home has given him a light to glance towards, to follow.]
[A singular hope. A jewel on the horizon. But the loss is there, and the failures are numerous, and there's always a chance it will die.]
[He seethes at it, angered - not even at Lobelia now, but something that they've both been sunk into. Monsters, clacking their teeth at being given something far beyond their reach. He squeezes a little more.]
...Shut up.
[I'll keep going. Even if you've given up, my terrible hope will carry me. Don't you have anything to carry you?]
Your damn moaning and groaning. I believed you more before. I didn't even expect you to be this weak. [He's leaning in, nose to nose, veins almost popping around his forehead from the anger.] But I suppose it was foolish of me to expect someone to even have a semblance of humanity left.
[Weak, eh? Maybe he is. Vergilius ought to be happy that he's snuffed out another flame, removed one more annoying stumbling block in the path ahead of him. He could surely ignore Lobelia now and get away with it, but he's choosing not to, choosing to engage him when he'd be better off leaving him behind in the dust.
Why? Isn't this weakness mutual?
It feels as if Vergilius is staring beyond him at something greater, as if Lobelia's only chance at securing such a bright, shining beacon is to cut the man down and seize the opportunity to take it for himself. Is that what he ought to do? Is giving up pointless when Vergilius knows where salvation lies?
Why aren't I fighting for this?
Won't this make me happy?
A laugh, broken and bloody, spills out of Lobelia's lips. There's some semblance of humanity remaining in him and he presses it to Vergilius' lips, suddenly shifting beneath him, latching his thighs around his hips and dragging him down flush against his body. Passionate when his words are anything but.]
You've lost everything, and yet you persist. You still believe happiness exists somewhere in this life. Such conviction... You'll show it to me, won't you?
[If Vergilius can do nothing else for him, won't he show him what it looks like to fight for something just beyond reach?]
[He realizes the answer to his question when the other pulls him down. He realizes it when the other meets his lips, when he says those words for him and him alone.]
[Isn't he, in the end, a guide? A guide must take the hand of another, and lead him out of the dark forest. Or further into it. If a way is not known, the guide will show it.]
[He wants to bring Lobelia to the bitter merciless end he wants him to suffer through. But that is still guiding him. Lobelia cannot falter or trip or simply lay down and wait for the end to come, but must keep moving forward like him, even if it is off a cliff to a cold, lonely end.]
[Is this really about happiness? Is this about satisfaction? Is it actually about the sanctity of their souls, whatever is left of them? He has conviction, yes. He'll show it till the point he bites down on his tongue and lets it bleed. The man's body is warm against him, and he wants to press himself into the meat and sinew and bone, somehow. An entangled ouroboros, indeed, tails of a rat king interlocked to eternity.]
[He clacks his teeth against the others, sighing past the other's lips in a husky, irritated groan.]
[At least one of them has conviction, yes? Real, solid conviction. The sort that will move his feet toward towards a tangible goal, and if Vergilius will neither grant him his death nor his happiness, then it's that conviction Lobelia has to take.
Choke on it, he says, like Lobelia wouldn't do just that. Like he needs provocation, fastening his legs all the tighter around Vergilius' hips not in invitation, but insistence, and rocking up against him. He wants to melt into Vergilius, remove what remains of this unpleasant distance between them. When their bodies are together, Lobelia feels something like relief. Something tangible. Sickening, isn't it?]
Well then, by all means, shove your conviction down my throat.
[A crass answer for a crass man. Seeking out his lips again, Lobelia bites them, teases them, sucks out his tongue and bites that too. If the old man needs a little incentive to give them both what they crave, Lobelia will give it to him in spades. He's not stopping until Vergilius makes good on his promise, and even then, there's no guarantee he'll stop at all.]
[Conviction is, perhaps, what makes him so dangerous, he thinks. The City has broken down plenty of souls, even people Vergilius had thought were strong enough to withstand the endless turmoil, the weight of sin. But time and time again, a weak spot was found, and minds and bodies came tumbling down under their own fragility. He remembers a man with eyes wet behind a dark mask, and the bloodshed that had followed when that man had fallen to the darkest pit a human being could fall to.]
[He had fallen, too. He had been tempted into taking a path to pure and utter monstrosity. But he turned away. His feet, soaked with blood, had started their endless move down a path. He had been broken - no, he was broken, still is - but he had to keep moving forward.]
[The flow cannot be stopped..]
[So let Lobelia follow that path, and be dashed onto the rocks of it for all he cares. And just as he lets the flow overtake him, so he lets the sensation and rising warmth coiling in his belly fog over his own mind. How funny, how he had planned for a singular, boring round. He had half-imagined sitting in the cabana at this point.]
[But here, he's returning the other's effort with low, occasional noises and grunts of physical satisfaction. One of his hands detaches from Lobelia's throat, slapping over the side of the sheets next to them before finding and grasping onto the bottle he had chucked onto them from before. Lobelia moves against him, and he rolls his hips against the man, breaking the kiss to murmur:]
I think I'll shove it somewhere else.
[And he'll make good on his promises. What a good guide he is.]
[He moves - his arms are shifting to tuck them in the crook of his arm, hoist them slightly upwards for a better angle. His hand with the lube is moving to uncap it with a flick of a thumb, other hand now joining it to coat a few fingers. A leaned-in and teeth-filled kiss is a poor distraction, he knows, but perhaps on purpose as he adjusts an arm to press the coated hand below, one finger starting to put pressure inside.]
[Perhaps he should be lenient and patient with the man, first time and all. But then again, he's never been known for being nice.]
[Ah, what a wonderful guide. Lobelia has been alone from the time he was a child, leaving the remnants of his parents behind to go into hiding as he committed atrocities all around the world. He followed his own feet wherever they desired to take him, but he's realized something now: if he'd had someone to light his path, would he have spent so long getting lost?
If he'd only met Vergilius sooner, would he have been happy by now?
Nestled in between his words is Vergilius' promise, one Lobelia picks up on and commits to memory. If he's going to follow after this man, he'd best expect Lobelia won't be forgetting about his promise any time soon. Into and grave or into eternity, Lobelia won't stray from his path now.]
Heheh... How vile you are.
[There's the briefest of smiles on Lobelia's face, but it's oh so very genuine. Pressed into the mattress, Lobelia shudders both in anticipation and in pain, his ribs stinging and crying out for mercy. Regardless, he doesn't ask Vergilius to stop. He wouldn't even if every bone in his body were splintered and broken, exhaling a sigh laced with some discomfort.
What a strange feeling. It's not... unpleasant, but Lobelia can comfortably say he's never had a finger in his ass before. All he can hope is that this somehow ends up feeling good or painful enough to ignore the unusual sensation that leaves his skin prickled up in goosebumps, but regardless, he gladly distracts himself with that kiss. Vergilius has more important things to focus on, so it falls on Lobelia to adjust the angle of their kiss so they aren't grinding enamel the entire time.]
[How vile he is, indeed. Too many times he has been called evil. A monster. A horrid thing in the shape of a man. He had killed over fifty people in a single night and left the carnage to be cleaned up by others. Sure, it was a job, but what wasn't a job these days? The blood was still on his hands.]
[No matter how guilty he feels, no matter how hard he repents, he's still a vile stain on the fabric of the City, isn't he?]
[And now, here is a new soul to destroy. He already cracked his ribs. He brought him to the realization that nothing he does will gain him happiness. His void can never be truly filled. Even with the promise of a display of conviction, isn't that another cruel way of giving him a mote of terrible hope before true destruction comes down upon him and smashes him into pieces for good?]
[(Pieces...pieces....shards of gems.....the gem had been so warm......)]
[Ah, Lobelia, what path will he lead you down?]
[Vergilius grunts, trying to pull his focus between two directions at once. Lobelia helping with the kiss is a boon - he huffs into it before kissing him anew, tongue trailing along his lower lip. The finger below pushes in, swipes back, thrusting lightly a few times. He adjusts himself again as he pulls out, free hand gripping hard over the other's hip as he starts to press in the second finger now. The scars on his hands and extra texture to rub and pull with the movement. Whatever Lobelia feels, being crumpled with hurting chest, he hopes it will be the bare minimum to feel with what is to come.]
[It's a different sort of pain where Vergilius' fingers pierce into him, dull and throbbing but not entirely unpleasant. It's hard to say it feels good being forced open on fingers thrusting their way into a place they don't belong, but every so often, the scarred fingers brush along something that makes him shiver and groan.
His sighs spool into Vergilius' mouth, both pleasured and pained, and he makes efforts to relax his muscles so the strain on them isn't quite as difficult to endure. It's not as if he doesn't deserve the pain, but selfish and hedonistic as he is, Lobelia wants to enjoy debasing this man as much as he can.
Whatever is left to be taken from him, Lobelia will take without hesitation. Begging, borrowing, stealing. If Vergilius doesn't guard it closely, Lobelia will dig it right out of him and keep it all for himself.
Tangling his fingers through Vergilius' hair, Lobelia tugs, coaxes his head back to expose his neck and suck out a bruise just beneath the hollow of his throat. No matter where they go, Lobelia wants to see the impact he's left on Vergilius stained onto his skin forevermore.]
[As he stretches the man down below, he's letting the man lavish pain and pleasure on him above, hissing at the feeling of teeth sinking into the skin on his neck. As much as the other is letting out his own light series of sounds underneath him, Vergilius is almost silent save for a few low gasps and huffs of effort - but that might be changing soon. Something feels like its unwinding, like a string. If had been aware of the tale, perhaps he could equate it to the golden thread that winds through the labyrinth of myth. Another path. But this one might lead to a beastly conclusion.]
[What an arrogant little thing this man is, to try to leave lasting marks on already marred skin. Lobelia may try to grab whatever he can from him, but that conviction is its own source of pride. Many have wanted something from him. And as he's told the man time and time again, the thing he likes the most is to deny them what they want. No one shall own him. No one shall look down on him. If anything, the most Lobelia can hope for is to crawl up to his level, he thinks.]
[As if his own way of punishment for that insolent bite, he lets out a low growl of a noise, pressing his fingers in deep to try to hit that perfect spot, before fully retracting. One more to go. He circles the entrance, before he puts in one, two, three now, taking it slow. His arousal bobs heavy against his abdomen once more.]
[He may be stained by Lobelia. But he wants to leave lasting damage in return.]
[He'll have his way regardless, won't he? No mark he leaves behind on the man's flesh will be as indelible as that litany of scars, but it will be his eyes treated to the sight of mottling bruises in the aftermath. His and his alone. If he can't have what slivers of happiness remain within Vergilius, he'll simply take the man himself and allow no one else to step into his orbit. If anyone is going to injure him now, it's going to be himself.
Still... it isn't just Vergilius' attention that's been split. Lobelia stiffens, unable to commit to a firm but measured bite when Vergilius digs his fingers into... something. No, no, Lobelia knows what it is, but it's that first wave of disbelief and shock that strangles an amused huff out of him. Don't think he won't return the favor some day, Vergilius. There's no need to seek out a proctologist in hell when you've got Lobelia's capable hands.
The stretch is nearly unbearable now, not for the weight of those calloused fingers, but for the arousal sitting heavily against his skin. How much longer will you make me wait?, he wants to ask, but it's a pointless question when Vergilius is no more patient than himself. Instead, by way of cheeky retorts, he squeezes up tight around those intruding fingers and raises a brow. Go ahead, then. Damage him. If Lobelia will allow anyone to invoke permanent harm on this body of his, then let it be Vergilius. He'll simply pray the scars never fade.]
[What a funny thing, to be wanted. What an even funnier thing, to be obsessed over. He fought against a man who saw children as beautiful jewels, once upon a time. That kind of viewpoint seemed so foreign to him, so abhorrent. He doesn't think Lobelia thinks of him that way - gems wouldn't hold his interest for long. So the way he looks at him now, body flush against him, must be something else. Perhaps he sees him simply as a man. Or a light. Or a guide. Or a dying man to drag through the water and eventually drown.]
[But regardless, when he catches the way the other huffs and meets his eyes, he feels like the man wants him in ways words can't quite describe.]
[Lobelia is right in that his patience is not something that lasts for so long for him - he feels the squeeze of the other's fingers, and it is answered with a shameful throb down below. He finally pulls his fingers out with a grimace, before shifting back. The lube is gathered up once again, and he's sneering at the artificial coconut scent as he uses a hand to slick himself over, breath throttling in his throat in a semblance of a groan.]
[The time has come. He tosses the bottle aside, before gathering the other's legs to pull up and press in, angling him. Vergilius casts his red gaze towards the other's face, and only a pause is his warning before he starts to move in. It's still tight, of course it is. His eyebrows furrow together with effort. But he's not one to back down, taking it slow to allow himself to get used to the feeling as his hands press into soft skin with nails leaving indents.]
[He exhales, a sigh that hangs in the air, and almost drips with the weight of feeling.]
[Life is finite, a person's lasting legacy only lingering on in the minds of those who survived them. With each successive generation, those memories grow fewer and farther apart before ultimately fading away. The last memory he leaves his victims is his twisted visage as he rends their flesh and bones, ending their lives. Those memories die with them never to be repeated or handed down, and thus, any happiness he felt in their destruction accompanies them into the void.
Will it be the same for Vergilius? Even if he'll no doubt feel exquisite bliss upon ending this man's life, he can't derive pleasure from a corpse. This man will take it with him, leave him empty and displeased and insatiable again when those crimson eyes inevitably stop glowing.
That won't do. That won't do at all. Thinking about it coaxes a petulant huff from Lobelia's lips, but to Vergilius, it probably isn't clear what has him thinking too hard during a time when he'd be better off not thinking at all. He isn't, really, acting on bodily instinct to loop his arms around Vergilius' shoulders and sink his nails into that scarred back.
He's not thinking when he accepts the pain of his intrusion, welcoming agony as if it were being handed to him like a gift. Lobelia bends and molds himself to accommodate Verilius, but far more selfishly, he moves to cage him in his limbs and forbid anyone and anything else from taking his guiding light.
Yes, Vergilius may very well die and selfishly take the memory of every pain Lobelia has inflicted on him to the grave, but there's a chance he won't. A thin, glimmering sliver of hope, like a shining jewel, a spark of salvation in a dark room. Maybe, if he can just follow Vergilius there... Then maybe, just maybe...]
...Heh, don't sound so fond. You'll make me second guess myself.
[Every word comes out strained and raw and all the more genuine for it. As if pulled back from the brink by his guiding light, Vergilius has assured Lobelia that a path forward exists for him. So long as he follows closely behind this man, he'll find his happiness in the end.]
[Comes the word, cracking in his throat like eggshells - which may imply that something has just been born, straggling out on shaking limbs. He would be the first to deny it, of course. His loathing is still as present as ever, vicious in the way he thrusts his hips forward to feel himself sink all the way to his base. But...what is it, then? What is this shiver that moves through him when he feels the man grasp onto him with encircled limbs and the taut muscles of a heated body?]
[He groans. Perhaps it really is the mere physical feeling that is making heat shift and coil from his abdomen to his back with heavy, growing intensity. He answers it by starting to roll his hips back, the tight drag starting another wave of a shudder through him.]
Don't kid yourself.
[He finally says, even though it feels bare and inadequate as a retort. Vergilius licks a thin, cool strip up the other's jawline, breath rattling like a growl. Something still churning, he moves to worry his teeth over the other's earlobe.]
[If Lobelia were to follow after him, would a shade like him be able to lead him out of the dark forest? There's no salvation for either of them. A heated sword through the other's guts should be guidance enough.]
[Right. Fond. It's been years since he knew what it felt like to be loved, wanted, cared for, and he can't say Vergilius feels any of those things towards him, and yet. And yet, and yet, and yet.
This feeling is not dissimilar to Lobelia's distant memory of fondness. It's almost funny how nothing in Vergilius' actions screams fond, and yet Lobelia feels that inexplicable connection all the same. Starved of it for so long, he can't recognize it as anything but.
Somehow, he's managed to make a dent on Vergilius. Managed to worm his way into his mortal soul and carve out a nook for himself. He'd love to laugh, frustrate Vergilius by asking him how he's allowed this to happen, but he's too busy fighting to keep his teeth from chattering.
Vergilus manages to stimulate that sweet spot inside of him when he brusquely thrusts back in, and in tandem with the teeth at his earlobe, Lobelia can't tamp down a sigh. A moan. Shivers that leave his nails seizing into Vergilius' back and his muscles tightening up all around him.]
H-ahaha... Somehow... I don't think I am.
[There's much he doesn't understand about the common man, but Vergilius isn't common by any stretch of the word. Kinship is a strong word, but Lobelia feels a connection to him. If his connections to the people around him are like toothpicks waiting to be snapped, Vergilius' is like a fine, steely thread digging into his veins that can't easily be broken. Surely he isn't the only one who feels it encircling him.]
[That can't be right. That absolutely can't be right. His very being spits and hisses at it, like he's being doused with acid. He steeled his heart after everything and everyone he lost save for a single person who wasn't even the same person he once knew. He can't allow himself any more than that. The density of his karma, like a cage, is to weigh him down and prevent anyone from even thinking of sticking a hand through the bars to reach into the bleeding heart within.]
You ask for too much.
[Greedy, greedy, greedy. Black holes always are. And yet this void feels so solid, so physical, so taut. He doesn't know why its surprising him. Logically, it makes sense, because Lobelia is human. But in its own way, its like stumbling through the dark and touching the soft warm skin of another lost there. He wants to strangle it. He wants to tear it apart. He wants to hold it close and never let go. What a pity, that he's so human. What a tragedy, that he's still so hungry for something he once had. How Lobelia fits into that, he doesn't know, but it makes him think of the man's claim to "Γ’mes soeurs" and it makes his heart ache in a way he doesn't understand.]
[The moan drives him forward. He thrusts anew, pressing the man into the sheets with strength he knows may be too much to bear, before rolling his hips back for another . If there is a steel wire binding them, let it be barbed wire, as prickly as thorns of a rose.]
[Whatever this is, he wants it to hurt, because he deserves nothing less, doesn't he?]
[Oh, it certainly hurts. It aches and stings and Lobelia can't stop writhing beneath Vergilius in such a way as to demand more of him. So he's empty, bottomless, a black hole, greedy to take whatever he can of this man only to find himself starving for more.
When will it be enough? Will it ever be? Will killing this man and following him into the afterlife finally fulfill him?
Blessedly, it's getting more and more difficult to focus on the uncertainties with Vergilius pounding into him. The bedframe shakes with every movement, the wood groaning and creaking, and it really is a shame that this stubborn old man wouldn't allow him to keep a single conch handy. Still, if he isn't permitted to relive this moment through recording it, he'll relive it by experiencing it again and again. Won't that be fun? Hope you enjoy getting ridden like a horse through the fires of hell on a daily basis, Verg.
How tempting it is to laugh at the man, but Lobelia's attempts at expressing his delight are cut through by deep, throaty moans, the pleasure he's treated to as raw as the wounds smarting beneath his skin. He can taste blood on his tongue, but he doesn't know from whom it came from, vision gone fuzzy and white, clearing only to reveal the sight of Vergilius' bloody neck to him. When had he bitten him? When had he bitten him hard enough to draw blood?
Ah, as if it matters. This body is his now too, and looking down, Lobelia sees what a mess Vergilius has left of him too. He's pooling precum on his abdomen, but rather than flush or look away from the sight of it, he simply swipes it up with his thumb and crams it in Vergilius' mouth.]
[He really keeps making his bloody, sinful bed, and laying in it. He came here wanting to deny the man in everything. And here, sinking so deep in him with every rough movement of his hips, air filled with the sound of flesh slapping into flesh interspersed with the wanton sounds of desire from both of their mouths, he's done the opposite. Lobelia never had an experience like this before. And now, of course, he's going to want more. He's given a thirsty man a sip of water to drink. As if he would expect such a man to sit pretty and ask for nothing else again.]
[And the trouble is, has it backfired on him? It was so easy to walk away before, even if the man had him trapped in his web with his little deals and exchanges. If Lobelia came to him after this and asked for another drop of water to feed an endless well, would be so quick to deny him another round, or two, or three? What has happened? Has he been changed? Or is this what he's always been?]
[The scent of blood almost feels like its going to send him into a frenzy - flashes of that time move through his head, making him shudder, but he's able to calm himself down only by realizing that what it is isn't coming from that new, yet familiar power. He doesn't even know if he's wounded, or Lobelia is. As he glances down, he suddenly feels something pressing into his mouth, making him hack and cough with a new, bitter taste. Challenged, he moves to take the man's thumb in as much as he can to suck on it and sink his teeth into the meat of it. He will bite the hand that feeds him, time and time again.]
[His own movements are becoming ragged, out of rhythm. The bed moves, and he's adjusting his grip to shift the man into a different angle so that he can pound at that anew. There are stars behind his eyes. He can't tell where he or the other man begins and ends, like they have become something new, smashed together, body sinking into body.]
[He's decided that he wants to hear the man scream.]
[His thumb is going to be smarting for a while yet, but you know that? That's fine. That's wonderful. A promise ring could never ache with such intensity, so the scar that will no doubt be left behind will make for a much more fitting symbol of their 'union'. It's only a shame he hadn't shoved his ring finger in Vergilius' maw instead to make this official.
Brought to new, dizzying heights with the scent of blood hanging acrid in the air, Lobelia squeezes up tight around Vergilius, tighter still when he's bent back at an almost unnatural angle. Ah... but how could making love to his Γ’me soeur be anything but natural? Surely there is nothing more natural than this, a thought he knows Vergilius would spit at if only he knew. Lobelia says nothing, laughing and rasping around a freshly bloodied mouth instead.
Vergilius can deny it all he wants, but this is the path forged for them, the path that will lead them into the depths of hell together. The call of his name, the way it breaks off the end of Vergilius' tongue, reminds Lobelia of the very first time he'd injured himself. The cacophonous crunch of a conch underfoot, the fixation that rooted within him and rapidly grew, the agonized cries of his parents as they lie in pools of blood at his feet.
His name rings in a similar fashion when Vergilius rasps it aloud, and transfixed by it, he's starving to hear it again. Clenched up tight around Vergilius and gasping for shallow breath after shallow breath, Lobelia's hands find his cheeks, beseeching him to speak his name aloud again, again, again.]
...What was that?
[As if he didn't hear him. Of course he did. He's beginning to tremble beneath Vergilius' weight, beginning to rasp all the more loudly, perched on the edge of something terrible.]
[He doesn't lose stamina easily. His body is too much of a beast of burden for that - even the punches and sharp intakes of breath he's making with each thrust doesn't really seem to tire him all that much. The only thing that's making him stagger is the sudden warmth in his cheeks, cradled by adoring hands. It feels so stark compared to viciousness of the whole act that his eyes widen, filled with that piercing, crimson light.]
[The taste of blood swallowed from the other's skin is one thing. The way the other tightens around him to the point of aching pain, feeling like he's made for him and him, alone is another. But those hands, those damnable hands, make something split and crack.]
[He knew for a long time that his hell would be cold. But here, it's like someone has wandered into the frigid wasteland, bent down to his frozen husk, and offered a lit match to hold. It can't warm him.]
[But there it is, regardless. That mote of craving, bittersweet and horrible as hunger often is.]
...Lobelia. [A hoarse whisper, against the man's lips.] Lobelia. [A gasp, a groan, an answer.] Lo...Lobe...Lobelia-ah....
[He's buried himself in completely - and there comes a full body tremble, shaking to the core, before he feels himself fall over the precipice. The heat intensifies, the union sealed, and he moans pasts the other's lips as he rides it out to its end.]
[...How very bittersweet. The way Vergilius calls his name is almost reverent, snaking through his skin and vibrating against bone like those tremors he'd wracked the man with not that long ago. It soaks into him, that near-plea, and warms him. If Vergilius has found himself frigid, that's only because Lobelia is selfish enough to soak up every bit of heat he can offer him.
Even the pain is no longer enough to distract from the pleasure, the intense pleasure wracking him from head to toe. Surely only Vergilius can make him feel this way. Only his Γ’me soeur, the feeling of coming undone so intense that Lobelia's ears ring with his own choked out moans.
Still, he can hear his name ring like an incantation on Vergilius' lips. No matter how loudly the blood pounds in his hears, he can commit the sound of his own name to memory.
...Somehow, even that isn't quite enough. Lobelia can no longer tell if he's reached his limit or already exceeded it β and what does it matter to him now β but he feels Vergilius vault past the point of no return and seeks out his lips for one final deep, probing kiss. The taste of blood is still so strong, and that's a good thing, isn't it? Lobelia never wants to forget this taste, not even when they've both left this place for the hell that lies beyond.]
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That warmth just now? That intimacy? Gone, but Vergilius burns all the brighter, hotter than any sun. If hell is too good for him, perhaps his very soul should be tossed into the pyre and wholly eliminated. If anyone can show him such mercy, won't it be his angel?
Beneath that rough, calloused hand, Lobelia's fingers briefly tremble.]
Ah, you think so lowly of me... but even I am aware of that fact, Vergilius. Nothing awaits me in the afterlife: not even l'enfer. I knew happiness once, and I crushed it into nothing.
[All that remains of Lobelia's parents are the sounds of their destruction, but even those are no longer in his possession. On this island, and for the first time in his life, Lobelia is entirely alone.]
I won't find it again. That jewel slipped through my grasp long ago.
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[It makes him release his fingers, and the statements make him still for a moment. This sounds so self-perceptive that it almost shocks him - where was the man who writhed in pleasure on the beach, or had told him he would be a thief to steal away the happiness he once experienced?]
[He stares down, finally letting both of his hands fall to his sides. Still straddling. Unsure where to walk, or fall, or land.]
What do you want me to say? Good for you? Good for your self-awareness? [Would you even think to repent, like me?] Tch. That "jewel"...
[He falls quiet at that, feeling distant.]
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Regardless, Lobelia's hands come up to seek out Vergilius' hands once more and fit them to his throat. What might it feel like to die? What would it look like? Sound like?]
Mm, your first mistake was thinking there is anything left for me to expect from you.
[There's a cold resignation in Lobelia's voice. One that chills right down to the bones, as oddly serene as it is alarming.]
Finish your thought, Vergilius. My patience is not infinite.
[What about that jewel? Tell him again how he'll never hold it in his hands. Lobelia expects to be told nothing less.]
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[The prompting makes his muscles tense - he starts to squeeze, leaning over with those characteristic bright eyes. That jewel, those jewels, small hands held in his, now never to return, shattered into oblivion-]
I... [He starts, stops. The voice cracks in his throat, like something fragile being pushed to its limits.] That jewel...
[That serene voice makes his skin crawl. He would prefer the writhing, the moans, the little perverted gasps. Don't be like this. If you've given up, what does that mean...?]
...I was loved. [His thumbs press up against the other's chin, his mouth twisted in a scowl.] I was loved, and I loved in turn. Do you think you'll ever have that? Do you want a thing like that?
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Really, he didn't need to force the truth out past Vergilius' lips to know what kept him from spitting it out. In a way, it's almost funny. Not that long ago, Lobelia would've savored his very private pain, but now?
Now, those hands around his throat are the only things keeping that cold, hard lump in place. Such an uncomfortable feeling, one Lobelia doesn't care to put a name to. Loss is never something he wanted to acknowledge the weight of, but he sees himself reflected in those burning red eyes and can feel that loss keenly.
Is this loss his? Is it Vergilius'? The lack of distinction is perhaps the least surprising part of all of it. As an ouroboros is destined to remain entangled forevermore, it seems they won't be able to escape one another now that they've sunk in their teeth.
It's rare for Lobelia to sigh, for there to be a tremble in his voice. He'll blame it on the hands around his neck, squeezing them tighter still. Holding them.]
You were the one to tell me that I'll never know happiness. You were the first.
[And if I have given up, what does that mean for you? One more life snuffed out, nothing more.]
Isn't it often the case that we can't get what we desire? You should be happy, Vergilius, knowing your lesson finally sunk in.
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[He has to bring them back.]
[Or else, he's going to lean back on that singular wish. That honest dream. That beautiful idea of a world destroyed to make another. Its not that he's against it, or he would wholeheartedly prevent himself from doing it. He's on the precipice. But someone back home has given him a light to glance towards, to follow.]
[A singular hope. A jewel on the horizon. But the loss is there, and the failures are numerous, and there's always a chance it will die.]
[He seethes at it, angered - not even at Lobelia now, but something that they've both been sunk into. Monsters, clacking their teeth at being given something far beyond their reach. He squeezes a little more.]
...Shut up.
[I'll keep going. Even if you've given up, my terrible hope will carry me. Don't you have anything to carry you?]
Your damn moaning and groaning. I believed you more before. I didn't even expect you to be this weak. [He's leaning in, nose to nose, veins almost popping around his forehead from the anger.] But I suppose it was foolish of me to expect someone to even have a semblance of humanity left.
[Why am I fighting this?]
[Shouldn't I be happy?]
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Why? Isn't this weakness mutual?
It feels as if Vergilius is staring beyond him at something greater, as if Lobelia's only chance at securing such a bright, shining beacon is to cut the man down and seize the opportunity to take it for himself. Is that what he ought to do? Is giving up pointless when Vergilius knows where salvation lies?
Why aren't I fighting for this?
Won't this make me happy?
A laugh, broken and bloody, spills out of Lobelia's lips. There's some semblance of humanity remaining in him and he presses it to Vergilius' lips, suddenly shifting beneath him, latching his thighs around his hips and dragging him down flush against his body. Passionate when his words are anything but.]
You've lost everything, and yet you persist. You still believe happiness exists somewhere in this life. Such conviction... You'll show it to me, won't you?
[If Vergilius can do nothing else for him, won't he show him what it looks like to fight for something just beyond reach?]
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[Isn't he, in the end, a guide? A guide must take the hand of another, and lead him out of the dark forest. Or further into it. If a way is not known, the guide will show it.]
[He wants to bring Lobelia to the bitter merciless end he wants him to suffer through. But that is still guiding him. Lobelia cannot falter or trip or simply lay down and wait for the end to come, but must keep moving forward like him, even if it is off a cliff to a cold, lonely end.]
[Is this really about happiness? Is this about satisfaction? Is it actually about the sanctity of their souls, whatever is left of them? He has conviction, yes. He'll show it till the point he bites down on his tongue and lets it bleed. The man's body is warm against him, and he wants to press himself into the meat and sinew and bone, somehow. An entangled ouroboros, indeed, tails of a rat king interlocked to eternity.]
[He clacks his teeth against the others, sighing past the other's lips in a husky, irritated groan.]
You'll choke on conviction. I guarantee it.
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Choke on it, he says, like Lobelia wouldn't do just that. Like he needs provocation, fastening his legs all the tighter around Vergilius' hips not in invitation, but insistence, and rocking up against him. He wants to melt into Vergilius, remove what remains of this unpleasant distance between them. When their bodies are together, Lobelia feels something like relief. Something tangible. Sickening, isn't it?]
Well then, by all means, shove your conviction down my throat.
[A crass answer for a crass man. Seeking out his lips again, Lobelia bites them, teases them, sucks out his tongue and bites that too. If the old man needs a little incentive to give them both what they crave, Lobelia will give it to him in spades. He's not stopping until Vergilius makes good on his promise, and even then, there's no guarantee he'll stop at all.]
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[He had fallen, too. He had been tempted into taking a path to pure and utter monstrosity. But he turned away. His feet, soaked with blood, had started their endless move down a path. He had been broken - no, he was broken, still is - but he had to keep moving forward.]
[The flow cannot be stopped..]
[So let Lobelia follow that path, and be dashed onto the rocks of it for all he cares. And just as he lets the flow overtake him, so he lets the sensation and rising warmth coiling in his belly fog over his own mind. How funny, how he had planned for a singular, boring round. He had half-imagined sitting in the cabana at this point.]
[But here, he's returning the other's effort with low, occasional noises and grunts of physical satisfaction. One of his hands detaches from Lobelia's throat, slapping over the side of the sheets next to them before finding and grasping onto the bottle he had chucked onto them from before. Lobelia moves against him, and he rolls his hips against the man, breaking the kiss to murmur:]
I think I'll shove it somewhere else.
[And he'll make good on his promises. What a good guide he is.]
[He moves - his arms are shifting to tuck them in the crook of his arm, hoist them slightly upwards for a better angle. His hand with the lube is moving to uncap it with a flick of a thumb, other hand now joining it to coat a few fingers. A leaned-in and teeth-filled kiss is a poor distraction, he knows, but perhaps on purpose as he adjusts an arm to press the coated hand below, one finger starting to put pressure inside.]
[Perhaps he should be lenient and patient with the man, first time and all. But then again, he's never been known for being nice.]
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If he'd only met Vergilius sooner, would he have been happy by now?
Nestled in between his words is Vergilius' promise, one Lobelia picks up on and commits to memory. If he's going to follow after this man, he'd best expect Lobelia won't be forgetting about his promise any time soon. Into and grave or into eternity, Lobelia won't stray from his path now.]
Heheh... How vile you are.
[There's the briefest of smiles on Lobelia's face, but it's oh so very genuine. Pressed into the mattress, Lobelia shudders both in anticipation and in pain, his ribs stinging and crying out for mercy. Regardless, he doesn't ask Vergilius to stop. He wouldn't even if every bone in his body were splintered and broken, exhaling a sigh laced with some discomfort.
What a strange feeling. It's not... unpleasant, but Lobelia can comfortably say he's never had a finger in his ass before. All he can hope is that this somehow ends up feeling good or painful enough to ignore the unusual sensation that leaves his skin prickled up in goosebumps, but regardless, he gladly distracts himself with that kiss. Vergilius has more important things to focus on, so it falls on Lobelia to adjust the angle of their kiss so they aren't grinding enamel the entire time.]
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[No matter how guilty he feels, no matter how hard he repents, he's still a vile stain on the fabric of the City, isn't he?]
[And now, here is a new soul to destroy. He already cracked his ribs. He brought him to the realization that nothing he does will gain him happiness. His void can never be truly filled. Even with the promise of a display of conviction, isn't that another cruel way of giving him a mote of terrible hope before true destruction comes down upon him and smashes him into pieces for good?]
[(Pieces...pieces....shards of gems.....the gem had been so warm......)]
[Ah, Lobelia, what path will he lead you down?]
[Vergilius grunts, trying to pull his focus between two directions at once. Lobelia helping with the kiss is a boon - he huffs into it before kissing him anew, tongue trailing along his lower lip. The finger below pushes in, swipes back, thrusting lightly a few times. He adjusts himself again as he pulls out, free hand gripping hard over the other's hip as he starts to press in the second finger now. The scars on his hands and extra texture to rub and pull with the movement. Whatever Lobelia feels, being crumpled with hurting chest, he hopes it will be the bare minimum to feel with what is to come.]
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His sighs spool into Vergilius' mouth, both pleasured and pained, and he makes efforts to relax his muscles so the strain on them isn't quite as difficult to endure. It's not as if he doesn't deserve the pain, but selfish and hedonistic as he is, Lobelia wants to enjoy debasing this man as much as he can.
Whatever is left to be taken from him, Lobelia will take without hesitation. Begging, borrowing, stealing. If Vergilius doesn't guard it closely, Lobelia will dig it right out of him and keep it all for himself.
Tangling his fingers through Vergilius' hair, Lobelia tugs, coaxes his head back to expose his neck and suck out a bruise just beneath the hollow of his throat. No matter where they go, Lobelia wants to see the impact he's left on Vergilius stained onto his skin forevermore.]
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[What an arrogant little thing this man is, to try to leave lasting marks on already marred skin. Lobelia may try to grab whatever he can from him, but that conviction is its own source of pride. Many have wanted something from him. And as he's told the man time and time again, the thing he likes the most is to deny them what they want. No one shall own him. No one shall look down on him. If anything, the most Lobelia can hope for is to crawl up to his level, he thinks.]
[As if his own way of punishment for that insolent bite, he lets out a low growl of a noise, pressing his fingers in deep to try to hit that perfect spot, before fully retracting. One more to go. He circles the entrance, before he puts in one, two, three now, taking it slow. His arousal bobs heavy against his abdomen once more.]
[He may be stained by Lobelia. But he wants to leave lasting damage in return.]
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Still... it isn't just Vergilius' attention that's been split. Lobelia stiffens, unable to commit to a firm but measured bite when Vergilius digs his fingers into... something. No, no, Lobelia knows what it is, but it's that first wave of disbelief and shock that strangles an amused huff out of him. Don't think he won't return the favor some day, Vergilius. There's no need to seek out a proctologist in hell when you've got Lobelia's capable hands.
The stretch is nearly unbearable now, not for the weight of those calloused fingers, but for the arousal sitting heavily against his skin. How much longer will you make me wait?, he wants to ask, but it's a pointless question when Vergilius is no more patient than himself. Instead, by way of cheeky retorts, he squeezes up tight around those intruding fingers and raises a brow. Go ahead, then. Damage him. If Lobelia will allow anyone to invoke permanent harm on this body of his, then let it be Vergilius. He'll simply pray the scars never fade.]
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[But regardless, when he catches the way the other huffs and meets his eyes, he feels like the man wants him in ways words can't quite describe.]
[Lobelia is right in that his patience is not something that lasts for so long for him - he feels the squeeze of the other's fingers, and it is answered with a shameful throb down below. He finally pulls his fingers out with a grimace, before shifting back. The lube is gathered up once again, and he's sneering at the artificial coconut scent as he uses a hand to slick himself over, breath throttling in his throat in a semblance of a groan.]
[The time has come. He tosses the bottle aside, before gathering the other's legs to pull up and press in, angling him. Vergilius casts his red gaze towards the other's face, and only a pause is his warning before he starts to move in. It's still tight, of course it is. His eyebrows furrow together with effort. But he's not one to back down, taking it slow to allow himself to get used to the feeling as his hands press into soft skin with nails leaving indents.]
[He exhales, a sigh that hangs in the air, and almost drips with the weight of feeling.]
Lobelia...
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Will it be the same for Vergilius? Even if he'll no doubt feel exquisite bliss upon ending this man's life, he can't derive pleasure from a corpse. This man will take it with him, leave him empty and displeased and insatiable again when those crimson eyes inevitably stop glowing.
That won't do. That won't do at all. Thinking about it coaxes a petulant huff from Lobelia's lips, but to Vergilius, it probably isn't clear what has him thinking too hard during a time when he'd be better off not thinking at all. He isn't, really, acting on bodily instinct to loop his arms around Vergilius' shoulders and sink his nails into that scarred back.
He's not thinking when he accepts the pain of his intrusion, welcoming agony as if it were being handed to him like a gift. Lobelia bends and molds himself to accommodate Verilius, but far more selfishly, he moves to cage him in his limbs and forbid anyone and anything else from taking his guiding light.
Yes, Vergilius may very well die and selfishly take the memory of every pain Lobelia has inflicted on him to the grave, but there's a chance he won't. A thin, glimmering sliver of hope, like a shining jewel, a spark of salvation in a dark room. Maybe, if he can just follow Vergilius there... Then maybe, just maybe...]
...Heh, don't sound so fond. You'll make me second guess myself.
[Every word comes out strained and raw and all the more genuine for it. As if pulled back from the brink by his guiding light, Vergilius has assured Lobelia that a path forward exists for him. So long as he follows closely behind this man, he'll find his happiness in the end.]
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[Comes the word, cracking in his throat like eggshells - which may imply that something has just been born, straggling out on shaking limbs. He would be the first to deny it, of course. His loathing is still as present as ever, vicious in the way he thrusts his hips forward to feel himself sink all the way to his base. But...what is it, then? What is this shiver that moves through him when he feels the man grasp onto him with encircled limbs and the taut muscles of a heated body?]
[He groans. Perhaps it really is the mere physical feeling that is making heat shift and coil from his abdomen to his back with heavy, growing intensity. He answers it by starting to roll his hips back, the tight drag starting another wave of a shudder through him.]
Don't kid yourself.
[He finally says, even though it feels bare and inadequate as a retort. Vergilius licks a thin, cool strip up the other's jawline, breath rattling like a growl. Something still churning, he moves to worry his teeth over the other's earlobe.]
[If Lobelia were to follow after him, would a shade like him be able to lead him out of the dark forest? There's no salvation for either of them. A heated sword through the other's guts should be guidance enough.]
[Foolish, foolish, a foolish idea.]
[And yet, and yet, and yet...?]
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This feeling is not dissimilar to Lobelia's distant memory of fondness. It's almost funny how nothing in Vergilius' actions screams fond, and yet Lobelia feels that inexplicable connection all the same. Starved of it for so long, he can't recognize it as anything but.
Somehow, he's managed to make a dent on Vergilius. Managed to worm his way into his mortal soul and carve out a nook for himself. He'd love to laugh, frustrate Vergilius by asking him how he's allowed this to happen, but he's too busy fighting to keep his teeth from chattering.
Vergilus manages to stimulate that sweet spot inside of him when he brusquely thrusts back in, and in tandem with the teeth at his earlobe, Lobelia can't tamp down a sigh. A moan. Shivers that leave his nails seizing into Vergilius' back and his muscles tightening up all around him.]
H-ahaha... Somehow... I don't think I am.
[There's much he doesn't understand about the common man, but Vergilius isn't common by any stretch of the word. Kinship is a strong word, but Lobelia feels a connection to him. If his connections to the people around him are like toothpicks waiting to be snapped, Vergilius' is like a fine, steely thread digging into his veins that can't easily be broken. Surely he isn't the only one who feels it encircling him.]
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[That can't be right. That absolutely can't be right. His very being spits and hisses at it, like he's being doused with acid. He steeled his heart after everything and everyone he lost save for a single person who wasn't even the same person he once knew. He can't allow himself any more than that. The density of his karma, like a cage, is to weigh him down and prevent anyone from even thinking of sticking a hand through the bars to reach into the bleeding heart within.]
You ask for too much.
[Greedy, greedy, greedy. Black holes always are. And yet this void feels so solid, so physical, so taut. He doesn't know why its surprising him. Logically, it makes sense, because Lobelia is human. But in its own way, its like stumbling through the dark and touching the soft warm skin of another lost there. He wants to strangle it. He wants to tear it apart. He wants to hold it close and never let go. What a pity, that he's so human. What a tragedy, that he's still so hungry for something he once had. How Lobelia fits into that, he doesn't know, but it makes him think of the man's claim to "Γ’mes soeurs" and it makes his heart ache in a way he doesn't understand.]
[The moan drives him forward. He thrusts anew, pressing the man into the sheets with strength he knows may be too much to bear, before rolling his hips back for another . If there is a steel wire binding them, let it be barbed wire, as prickly as thorns of a rose.]
[Whatever this is, he wants it to hurt, because he deserves nothing less, doesn't he?]
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When will it be enough? Will it ever be? Will killing this man and following him into the afterlife finally fulfill him?
Blessedly, it's getting more and more difficult to focus on the uncertainties with Vergilius pounding into him. The bedframe shakes with every movement, the wood groaning and creaking, and it really is a shame that this stubborn old man wouldn't allow him to keep a single conch handy. Still, if he isn't permitted to relive this moment through recording it, he'll relive it by experiencing it again and again. Won't that be fun? Hope you enjoy getting ridden like a horse through the fires of hell on a daily basis, Verg.
How tempting it is to laugh at the man, but Lobelia's attempts at expressing his delight are cut through by deep, throaty moans, the pleasure he's treated to as raw as the wounds smarting beneath his skin. He can taste blood on his tongue, but he doesn't know from whom it came from, vision gone fuzzy and white, clearing only to reveal the sight of Vergilius' bloody neck to him. When had he bitten him? When had he bitten him hard enough to draw blood?
Ah, as if it matters. This body is his now too, and looking down, Lobelia sees what a mess Vergilius has left of him too. He's pooling precum on his abdomen, but rather than flush or look away from the sight of it, he simply swipes it up with his thumb and crams it in Vergilius' mouth.]
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[He really keeps making his bloody, sinful bed, and laying in it. He came here wanting to deny the man in everything. And here, sinking so deep in him with every rough movement of his hips, air filled with the sound of flesh slapping into flesh interspersed with the wanton sounds of desire from both of their mouths, he's done the opposite. Lobelia never had an experience like this before. And now, of course, he's going to want more. He's given a thirsty man a sip of water to drink. As if he would expect such a man to sit pretty and ask for nothing else again.]
[And the trouble is, has it backfired on him? It was so easy to walk away before, even if the man had him trapped in his web with his little deals and exchanges. If Lobelia came to him after this and asked for another drop of water to feed an endless well, would be so quick to deny him another round, or two, or three? What has happened? Has he been changed? Or is this what he's always been?]
[The scent of blood almost feels like its going to send him into a frenzy - flashes of that time move through his head, making him shudder, but he's able to calm himself down only by realizing that what it is isn't coming from that new, yet familiar power. He doesn't even know if he's wounded, or Lobelia is. As he glances down, he suddenly feels something pressing into his mouth, making him hack and cough with a new, bitter taste. Challenged, he moves to take the man's thumb in as much as he can to suck on it and sink his teeth into the meat of it. He will bite the hand that feeds him, time and time again.]
[His own movements are becoming ragged, out of rhythm. The bed moves, and he's adjusting his grip to shift the man into a different angle so that he can pound at that anew. There are stars behind his eyes. He can't tell where he or the other man begins and ends, like they have become something new, smashed together, body sinking into body.]
[He's decided that he wants to hear the man scream.]
Lob...elia...
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Brought to new, dizzying heights with the scent of blood hanging acrid in the air, Lobelia squeezes up tight around Vergilius, tighter still when he's bent back at an almost unnatural angle. Ah... but how could making love to his Γ’me soeur be anything but natural? Surely there is nothing more natural than this, a thought he knows Vergilius would spit at if only he knew. Lobelia says nothing, laughing and rasping around a freshly bloodied mouth instead.
Vergilius can deny it all he wants, but this is the path forged for them, the path that will lead them into the depths of hell together. The call of his name, the way it breaks off the end of Vergilius' tongue, reminds Lobelia of the very first time he'd injured himself. The cacophonous crunch of a conch underfoot, the fixation that rooted within him and rapidly grew, the agonized cries of his parents as they lie in pools of blood at his feet.
His name rings in a similar fashion when Vergilius rasps it aloud, and transfixed by it, he's starving to hear it again. Clenched up tight around Vergilius and gasping for shallow breath after shallow breath, Lobelia's hands find his cheeks, beseeching him to speak his name aloud again, again, again.]
...What was that?
[As if he didn't hear him. Of course he did. He's beginning to tremble beneath Vergilius' weight, beginning to rasp all the more loudly, perched on the edge of something terrible.]
Say it again. You'reβ so calme, Vergilius...
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[The taste of blood swallowed from the other's skin is one thing. The way the other tightens around him to the point of aching pain, feeling like he's made for him and him, alone is another. But those hands, those damnable hands, make something split and crack.]
[He knew for a long time that his hell would be cold. But here, it's like someone has wandered into the frigid wasteland, bent down to his frozen husk, and offered a lit match to hold. It can't warm him.]
[But there it is, regardless. That mote of craving, bittersweet and horrible as hunger often is.]
...Lobelia. [A hoarse whisper, against the man's lips.] Lobelia. [A gasp, a groan, an answer.] Lo...Lobe...Lobelia-ah....
[He's buried himself in completely - and there comes a full body tremble, shaking to the core, before he feels himself fall over the precipice. The heat intensifies, the union sealed, and he moans pasts the other's lips as he rides it out to its end.]
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Even the pain is no longer enough to distract from the pleasure, the intense pleasure wracking him from head to toe. Surely only Vergilius can make him feel this way. Only his Γ’me soeur, the feeling of coming undone so intense that Lobelia's ears ring with his own choked out moans.
Still, he can hear his name ring like an incantation on Vergilius' lips. No matter how loudly the blood pounds in his hears, he can commit the sound of his own name to memory.
...Somehow, even that isn't quite enough. Lobelia can no longer tell if he's reached his limit or already exceeded it β and what does it matter to him now β but he feels Vergilius vault past the point of no return and seeks out his lips for one final deep, probing kiss. The taste of blood is still so strong, and that's a good thing, isn't it? Lobelia never wants to forget this taste, not even when they've both left this place for the hell that lies beyond.]
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