[He's tasted sweeter deaths, but bitter and salty death is nothing he'll complain about. Jerking upright, Lobelia sputters and coughs, the stinging ache in his throat warning him against acting so recklessly in the future. The answer to whether or not he'll listen to it is one they both know well.
He winces with every word, coughing to clear his throat, but an ache so minor could never wipe the look of self-satisfaction of Lobelia's face, smile spanning wide.]
[Ugh. Now he really is missing when the man was shut up, even if it was because he was giving him a whole blowjob. His expression is returning to its characteristic stern look as he moves to push his upper body up with his elbows.]
Of course I intend to scold you. But part of me thinks you want it that way. After all, pain is your pleasure, is it not?
[But now he's reaching over to grasp the other's chin harshly, pulling him up. A closing of the distance, another kiss - he tastes a little bit of himself on them as he licks them over, finally pulling back without releasing his grip.]
Maybe I'll just deny you your own release, for being such a rebellious sort.
[If he promises to be on his best behavior for now on, will Vergilius go easy on him? Lobelia considers asking before he's jerked up by his chin and tugged into a kiss, one he lingers in before easing back just enough to quietly laugh.]
Would you truly do something so cruel? That may cause health problems...
[Not that he's particularly worried about getting blueballed or the consequences of it, another hum of amusement pressed to Vergilius' lips when Lobelia steals a kiss.]
Mes excuses! I'll ask permission next time. Je promets, so go easy on me, hm?
Oh, please. You're young. You can survive it. If you can't, I would wonder how you live and breathe in the first place, as fragile as you are.
[Lobelia steals a kiss. He steals a kiss right back, as easy as anything, breath rumbling into his chest like the purr of a large feline sated after the hunt. Well, not really sated. Can he even be sated? Would he allow himself to be?]
[Even in the midst of this satisfaction, guilt still beats under the surface. Is this right? Is this atonement? But, ah, it's with Lobelia. The man is his personal source of hell, in the end.]
Be careful what you wish for. I might go so easy on you that you'll be left unsatisfied. [His fingers scrape from the side of the man's abdomen to his back. He didn't really have a chance to explore the other's body before, so swept up in the glacial movement of pure rage.] Decisions, decisions.
[It's quite possible that he's as fragile as Vergilius accuses him of being, having never given anyone a fair shot in a fight before until his duel to the death with this man right here. As such, he's perfectly happy to play along and heave a very put upon sigh, watching Vergilius' hands rove his body with muted curiosity.]
[He's goosebumping, sure, but Vergilius' touch isn't so light that it inspires spasms and laughter. There's something nice, he finds, about being explored like this. Gee, it's almost as if being desired on some level is kind of nice. Returning that little purr of satisfaction with one of his own, Lobelia leans in to take another kiss from Vergilius' lips, long and lingering.]
[That's a trait that's for, like, kids, not someone as horrendous as Lobelia. Obviously. Then again, the remark about irritating laughter is right on point. There really is nothing more grating than a man who clearly is taking a lot of joy in getting his way.]
[Which is why, again, kisses like this feel so novel. Even he doesn't remember a time where he's been kissed like this, paid attention to like this. Colors like him are like prizes, in a certain sense, if you can get them to do what you want for them. He's Lobelia's prize, but not in the same way as before.]
[He pulls back, only to look at the man for a long moment, tousled hair and bright razor-sharp eyes and all, before he leans past him to get his target - the man's ear, once more, now being grasped firmly between his teeth in a light bite.]
[Meanwhile, his hands encircle the man, pull him more onto his lap before he tugs his thighs to hug onto him. His husky tone murmurs, the sounds rolling into the seashell-like coils of his ear.]
You wanted it before. [A challenge.] Let's see if you can get it.
[At this point, Lobelia isn't even defending himself against attacks on his poor, delicate ears... but then again, when had he tried to defend them from Vergilius? The bite makes him shiver, but it's Vergilius' voice, low and rasping in his ear, that has him exhaling a quiet sigh of need.
There must be something wrong with him, a thought that has only just now occurred to Lobelia and strictly because he's realized something totally fucked: the only sounds he really cares to hear in this moment are the ones made by Vergilius. Should he seek psychological help? Is he a danger to himself and others?? How troubling...]
Are you stringing me along now? How uncouth.
[He's wanted this for a while now, arousal digging into Vergilius' abdomen when he pulls him onto his lap, encircled by his thighs. Not shoving Vergilius down and taking him after sucking him off was Lobelia's attempt to feign good behavior, but he's being challenged now, isn't he?
He's being permitted to misbehave, hooking a thumb onto Vergilius' mouth to guide him back into a proper kiss, one he doesn't part from before troubling the man's bottom lip pale. He wants to be felt and explored, but he isn't done mapping Vergilius out with his reverent touch, starting first with the shoulders he's wrapped his arms around. He can appreciate Vergilius for more than his potent rage, squeezing muscle and bone beneath his fingertips while their tongues intermingle.]
[He is giving permission now, something that would've seemed such an anathema to his being before. He never would've wanted to give Lobelia an inch. What happened now? Can it really be chalked to simply making an oath? Selling their souls to each other?]
[What a mistake he has made. Hell should belong to one person alone. To have another here begets temptations he never would have dreamed of.]
[Lobelia nestles against him, like puzzle pieces slotting side by side - the arousal pressing into his abdomen is a sensation he would outwardly deny feels very welcome, indeed. He is hooked back into the kiss, hissing with the ravaging of teeth as he clacks his own in reply to nip at the invading tongue.]
[The other's arms around him are what almost make him falter - so akin to an embrace that his heart throbs with want he didn't realize before. His own hands slide over the other's hips, tugging down whatever Lobelia has left to free him completely. He has given permission. They have allowed this of each other.]
[And this is only the beginning of much ravaging to come.]
[It's warmth that burns hotter than any sun, fire under Vergilius' fingertips where they alight on bare skin. It's maddening and alluring and frightening all at once, a sensation Lobelia has never know before, and yet this isn't the first time Vergilius has touched him.
Why is it so overwhelming now? It's the not lack of control, surely β they've simply traded control over themselves for control over each other β but something else entirely. Lobelia has never known what it is to fear another human being, and he could never be afraid of this man even if a sensible person would be, but this feeling...
...The only thing that chases the uncertainty away is a firm touch. Those warm, calloused hands. Stripped down to nothing, cool air hits hot flesh and Lobelia shivers, nails digging shallow crescents into Vergilius' back. Ah, and how long has he been sighing like this into Vergilius' mouth? Lobelia finds his attention scattered too thoroughly to focus on any particular thing, something like nerves making his every breath shake on the exhale, something like a need he's ever known. Very odd indeed, and yet he presses himself further into Vergilius' lap, eager for his warm hands to chase away these unusual feelings.]
[If Lobelia were to tell him about wanting his hands to help ease the storm of feeling inside, Vergilius might respond with the fact that in reality, his hands might make it worse. After all, he's in a similar situation - there's something so addicting about the sounds, the sensations, the simmering tension growing every second they move against each other. Why is something that was once so distasteful to him before so oddly delicious now? He swallows down those sighs, countering with little grunts of his own. His hands continue to covet the unblemished skin they find.]
[A part of him feels like he's toppling down a hole never to return, like a pebble tossed into a dark well.]
[And he's welcoming it. Damn it. Why? Why is he...?]
[One hand circles back to the other's groin, diving between them to stroke along the underside of the man's cock. Somehow he knows his scars are adding to the experience, and he rubs there, a little smirk alighting his mouth and his eyes. More of a blatant tease.]
[He'll come to find that seeking assistance for the tumult of emotion in him from the man putting him through the storm will, in fact, only make it worse. In time, he'll wonder how he was ever blindsided by the true nature of his feelings to begin with.
He thought he loved Vergilius, genuinely, but the truth of the matter has begun to dawn on Lobelia: infatuation is fleeting, and indeed, that obsession with Vergilius prior to their death was nothing but a passing fixation. In its place are the seeds of those confusing, overwhelming feelings, and a need to be with him that goes further than the thought of claiming ownership over his heart in a quite literal way.
Maybe this is what genuine love roots fromβ an intimate touch, wanting someone and being wanted by them in turn. It's familiar in a way that's almost painful, leaning into Vergilius' every touch like it's only natural, like he never understood how he survived without it.
He jolts when Vergilius' fingers find the underside of his cock, moans spilling into their kiss before he knows what's hit him, and something else occurs to Lobelia. His defenses are down, almost entirely, a revelation that startles him after a lifetime spent carefully watching his own back just in case comeuppance managed to find him. What makes it worse is that smirk, that damned smirk, and catching it glinting him Vergilius' eyes while drawing a breath sets something on fire in Lobelia. Le bΓ’tard.
He can only imagine how much sooner he would have found his death if anyone, anyone in the universe could rile him up as effortlessly as Vergilius. Tipping forward, Lobelia brings them both down against the robes and the flowers and the grass stains they'll have to die to remove from their clothing after the mess they'll make of each other. Straddling him on bent elbows, Lobelia carves his way back into Vergilius' mouth and pants his name into it, over and over, some sick imitation of the spell he's put him under. If this feeling, up until now, had only been infatuation, how much worse is it going to get?]
[It's a fact of the profession. No close bonds. What you have can easily be lost in an instant. You can have your acquaintances, but to keep someone intimately close is a fool's errand in the City. Of course, you had exceptions to the matter, and even love can still bloom on the battlefield, but any Fixer worth their weight in salt knew that in order to keep moving without falling into despair, they had to cut human connection like errant vines of a weed.]
[Vergilius learned that lesson in the worst way possible. Even he, with his attempts, and his pitiful soft heart, had the fact beaten into him. Everyone he loved would be taken from him. He cannot love again. Even the young girl at home, the one whose hope he would run the world for, was still a point of weakness. Best to shut everyone else out and keep moving.]
[So why...so how....so what is happening here? Lobelia is close, so close, and he should be shutting him out like before. Why does he want more? Is he this isolated and lonely as to grasp onto this and desire more? Is that right? Is it merely a physical trick? It hardly seems like that the more this goes on. He feels like he's doing his best not to stare at the sun beating so hotly on his shoulders. An obvious fact he still wants to deny.]
[But even in denial, he's rushed along in the flood of it all. More moans. More pitches of Lobelia's voice. More of this heated body, plaintive movements, more. More. More.]
[He's easily tipped over, strong arms encircling the other's body as he gasps at his own name being repeated like a desperate hymn of worship. And he, as adored relic, returns the favor with a rolling, needy movement of his hips, his own voice trying to crack through the litany of sound Lobelia is pouring onto him.]
[This moment could stretch on for eternity and it still wouldn't be long enough. Lobelia has always been alone, too far removed from anyone to relate to them, much less find anything in his heart stirred by their presence. That's why Vergilius is such an anomaly. That's why Vergilius is different.
Perhaps there truly is something wrong with his head, finding that isolation bothers him only in the absence of someone who he actually desires to be with. The idea of this moment coming to an end frustrates Lobelia, saddens him, already mourning the loss of warmth and intimacy that's oh so novel to him. Be that as it may, he can't imagine himself tiring of itβ not as he has of killing, of destruction, of looking for meaning in the rubble left behind.]
Vergilius...
[...He's not going to last a second inside of this man, is he? It's with that and a few other selfish thoughts in mind that Lobelia fumbles for the lube, successfully managing to blindly grope around the grass to find the bottle. Eager as he is to rut against Vergilius, answer friction with friction, he can do him one better. With a lilting, dizzied laugh, Lobelia sits himself up on Vergilius' lap and uncaps the bottle of lubricant.]
I said that I would do anything to please you, non...? So autorise moi.
[Lobelia knows what he wants, fingers settled around the base of Vergilius' shaft while his other hand upends the bottle to drizzle it with lube. He knows what he wants, but he asks for permission regardless, boring holes into those dazzling red eyes and awaiting his confirmation. Greedy as he is, this is a concession Lobelia makes in earnest.]
[It's a moment in slow motion. It's a moment moving too fast to be captured. It conflicts with itself, somehow. He should hate this man. He does, he thinks so, he knows so, but why does the sudden prospect of all of this ending and them going back to the pleasant dreariness of a garden seem so dreadful? So many questions. The warmth of Lobelia's lips lingers on his tongue. No answers, no clear answers at all.]
[The other draws back, and Vergilius's eyes, ever piercing, fixate on the other's face. A quick glance between him, the bottle clumsily grabbed, and the position that connects dots. He lets out a shaky, heated exhale - (how in the world is he already so ready so quick? it's happened twice, both with THIS man of all people) - before hissing between gritted teeth at the wet cool sensation.]
[He's asking permission. Again, an outstretched hand. Vergilius stares into Lobelia's eyes as if he can see past them, fray the man muscle fiber by muscle fiber to see within. He knows what he's asking for. And this time, after everything, he relents to it.]
[He nods, hand reaching up to press his fingertips on the line of the other's thigh. The tip of his wounded thumb burns with the contact.]
[That hand is much too tempting, still red with blood, and Lobelia reaches to skim his fingers along it, drag it up to his lips to kiss the injury that sealed their bond.]
Merci.
[The selfish man in him (read: all of him) wants to hold onto Vergilius' hand, but he'll need both of his own to steady himself. He wasn't nearly so self-aware the first time they had sex, interested less in the intimacy of the act and more on stripping Vergilius of any other choice in the matter.
Now? Now he's painfully aware of the eyes on him as he lifts his hips, positions himself over the tip of Vergilius' cock and slowly lowers himself onto it. Ah. Ahhh. Not preparing himself first was a mistake, but not one he allows himself to linger on, working through the full-body shivers to acclimate to the stretch. He's not one to easily admit when he's erred, however...]
[Well, there he goes. That's what he expects of Lobelia. He had done it from the beginning, after all - jumping first and looking later. Admittedly, he was smart to keep up, reckless enough to cover up any perceived hiccup. Here, however...]
[It's tight, of course - even he's feeling the strain as the man lets him sink deeper and deeper. What a fool. Smart as a whip, but a fool nevertheless.]
[His thumb seems to burn with a different kind of warmth from the kiss.]
You wanted this. Actions have...consequences. [He manages to say after a moment, the gravel of his voice almost hiding the whine of his words.] If anyone, blame yourself.
[But not one to simply elect for complaint, he moves on, hands holding onto the other's hips as he, too, gets used to the core of heat he's now buried into. He had it once before. He didn't care to linger on it...then, at least.]
Doesn't matter when I'll...still make you limp around this damned garden by the time we're- ergh - done.
[He should be smarter than this, shouldn't he? And he is... but around Vergilius, thinking clearly rapidly becomes difficult. Lobelia killed this man in such a way that his own death was assured, leaving little room for error, leaving no relationship standing save for the one he gave his life to pursue. No one will mourn him, no one will miss him, and that's just as it should be. This is the outcome that was destined for him, and yet.
And yet.
At what point did he stop calculating every detail of their relationship? Lobelia chokes out a laugh at his own expense, so eager for this warmth, this mutuality that logic has been thrown entirely to the wayside. Perhaps some part of his brain didn't manage to respawn along with the rest of him, but at least this overbearing tightness is the sort of throbbing pain he can live with, even enjoy. Vergilius, on the other hand...]
[Comes the sharp retort - a little sign that the Vergilius everyone knows and can't stand is most certainly still here. Even in the midst of sex, he can't help being a grumpy curmudgeon.]
[That being said, though, he's using this little pause not only to get adjusted to the feeling (he swallows, feeling the ache and throb of arousal beating within the man, a sensation that makes a thin line of sweat draw a line down his forehead) but also to grasp the man by the thighs as he shoots a challenging look upwards.]
[He digs his heels in, pressing hips upward with a decisive shift- as if by movement he can threaten to break the man in two.]
[Ah, but his grumpy, curmudgeonly ways are a big part of his charm, at least in Lobelia's opinion. He laughs, his sharp retort taking some of the edge off his nerves. This little lull was much needed, at least for Lobelia, to accommodate not only to the stretch but to catch his breath as well. Somewhere in the back of his mind, he knows he won't be able to stop again once he begins. Just like tearing through the streets on a path of destruction, Lobelia can do nothing in half measures.]
Heheh... Is that so? I think you've forgotten... who's in control here.
[He shifts, knees squared on either side of Vergilius' hips, and gradually lifts himself. The sensation feels brand new, foreign all over again, but it won't for long. He's already begun to crave this again, desiring the heat and the contact and the pain in equal measure, that desire made all the more clear to him when he sharply drops back down on Vergilius' hips to pin them back to the ground where they belong.
It smarts, but of course it does. Lobelia is certain the ache is mutual, but he gathers his bearings quickly and palms Vergilius' shoulders to anchor himself. His vision's blurring up again, tight to an almost painful degree, but that doesn't stop Lobelia from dropping himself onto Vergilius' hips over and over again, the clap of skin on skin echoing in his ears.]
["Control" is a funny word. Of course, as much as he would've hated to admit it. Lobelia did have the upper hand in the land of the living. His terrible deals, his ways of putting Vergilius under the metaphorical heel of his boot and making him comply - it was a feeling that the man hated beyond reason. He acquiesced to being a Color because he didn't want anyone to dictate what he had to do. Lobelia worming in and putting a bit on him like taming an animal was more than enough to stoke his anger.]
[But here, even as the man says it, is it really "control"? Lobelia is moving now, finally, impaled on him, making him move deeper and deeper with every downward slap of the hips. Vergilius could easily turn the tides, here. He's strong enough to, and he knows Lobelia knows that. And yet, here they are, with the magician in being more of a vulnerable state than he makes it come off at.]
[And Vergilius, he doesn't want to take advantage of that. It's something that surprises even him, lost in the midst of his own cascade of low uttered moans from the way the other moves. His hands slide up, mapping out muscle, before resting softly on the ridges of his upper spine. It hurts. It's wonderfully pleasant. Again, and again, and again.]
[His request comes out, almost keening, from the depths of his throat.]
[He's never left himself so vulnerable before, every inch of his body and soul stripped bare before this man. It's terrifying, yes, but that fear can't control himβ only Vergilius can now, one soul traded out for the other. That leaves the only person capable of hurting him writhing beneath him, someone who he can hurt just as severely, just as deeply, cutting scars into his heart.
The option is there, but Lobelia won't take it. No more harm will befall this man unless he wills it, be it harm wrought by Lobelia's hands or anyone else. That's just as it should be, an adequate price to pay for the happiness he's shown him, the pain he blesses him with every time he drops his hips.]
...Tu es gourmand, Vergilius.
[But it's not just pain he's blessed with. Hearing Vergilius moan, feeling his hands trace along his body for no other reason than to feel him, demanding more of him... all of that quickly eclipses the ache, replacing it with something much more pleasant. Lobelia feels that heat burn deep in his gut and adjusts his posture not to chase that pleasure, but to draw this moment on as long as he can, pitched forward to eclipse Vergilius.
Before, he would've acted more selfishly, tilting his hips forward so every downward thrust would make the head of Vergilius' cock strike his prostate, but not now. Not now. Lobelia bites his bottom lip, every shivering exhale passing through his teeth. More. More. He gives Vergilius what he wants, fucking himself on him with even more verve, and he finds that he can't stop staring at him. Why would he want to look anywhere else?]
[Even if he can't translate the other's little reprimand, the thought already comes to his mind on his own. Greedy. Is he greedy? He's never wanted. He's always given. Even the small blessings of life before seemed like something of an after-thought. He's the type of man to tear himself to pieces instead of desiring something for his own sake. That was the sticking point that voice had found during that one moment - the very idea of self-satisfaction seemed so alien and foreign to him that it seemed more than easy to turn away from.]
[But maybe he just never knew what he wanted. Up until this point, desire was never a thought on his mind. So what's this feeling when he looks up at Lobelia's gasping, pleased face as he thrusts so eagerly against him? His eyes shine their characteristic red, but there's a warmth that infuses them as he feels the tension tighten and twist like a potent knot at their point of union. His back feels a little irritated, even with robe below protecting him from shifting directly against plant and ground. The man might be physically less stronger, but the intensity is nothing to sneeze at.]
[Mutuality requires cooperation. In a move he never would've done before, one hand moves to dive down between them. His fingers fumble, before holding firm over Lobelia's shaft, his mouth alighting with a glimmer of a smile as he pumps in tandem with him, a matched rhythm.]
Lobelia...
[If he'll go over, he wants to have Lobelia go over with him.]
[...So, so greedy, but Lobelia doesn't rebuke him with anything more than a laugh. So much for outpacing the old man, eh? The stroking of his hand elicits an entirely different sort of pleasure, Lobelia finds, than the bone-deep fire that burns in him whenever Vergilius' cock strikes something sensitive within him.
The flames his hand stokes are much more familiar, eliciting a wave of shivers and the low, guttering moans to match. His fingers, once firmly grasping Vergilius' shoulders, have begun to quiver. That smile... It's almost unnerving, so different from what Lobelia is used to from the man. All the same, it's alluring, inviting, and Lobelia gives into the temptation to lean in and kiss him.
It's a mess of heavy breaths and clicking teeth, his attention too thoroughly divided between one source of pleasure and the next, Vergilius' palm stained damp with his precum. With each passing moment, he throws down more and more of his weight onto Vergilius' hips, the cadence of their bodies as pleasing to his ears as it is to every other part of him. He won't last much longer, his kisses devolving to little more than shameless panting into Vergilius' mouth, but he resists the urge to come as long as he can. A little more time to remain like this, a little more time to savor it, and more importantly, if this bliss must end, he wants it to end right where it beganβ with Vergilius.]
[He's panting the man's name now. Lobelia. Lobelia. Lobelia. Like the last time they did this, its something that spills out of his mouth, unbidden, but there's a tone to it now that sets it apart from before. There, it had been tinged with something he had no name for. Now, it feels like its soaked in it. A comfortable rumble, pleasure sitting in his bones like sunlight bathing an area once thought lost forever in darkness.]
[He is no longer conscious of the garden around them. He's not even fully conscious of their state here, as the dead grasping onto something that for a moment makes them feel alive like nothing before. There's only Lobelia. It all seems to begin and end with him, from the way their bodies press into each other, mouths gasping for air.]
[He can't help but writhe a little as he feels himself continue to move into the other man with reckless abandon, trying to focus on keeping the pace as his hand strokes and grips and keeps hold where he can. Lobelia. Lobelia. Lobelia. The man had ripped out his heart. For some reason the scene comes to mind with no prompting. The pain in his chest like a macabre blossoming flower, the heat of the other's hand inside of him, glinting white teeth set in a pretty, boyish face...]
Ah...
[A hiccup, a gasp, and a groan is all that warns the man as it all seems to crash together, his climax hitting hard as he thrusts his hips up one last time, feeling little twitches of shockwaves moving through his body. One last kiss, stolen as he feels his hand give one last languid stroke to Lobelia, hoping to feel a stream of heat in return.]
[How foolish he's been, how little he's known of joy, of happiness, of all the warmth mutuality could bring. Dutiful as ever, Lobelia is trailing right behind in Vergilius' shadow, crumbling to his elbows when Vergilius' release prompts his own. He knows he's left behind a greater mess than last time, but he can't focus on something so inconsequential when Vergilius is rasping his name over and over again.
Lobelia is as enlivened as he is spent, overwhelmed, that odd dichotomy raging inside of him while he presses sloppy kisses to Vergilius' mouth, savoring every ragged whisper. Lobelia, Lobelia, Lobelia. He's never cared much for his name, it holds a different significance to him now.
"Love and devotion," his parents told him. "That's what lobelias represent." How ironic that he's found some truth to his name after all.
Lobelia rides that wave as far as it will take them, eventually ceding to the hazy afterglow and resting his head on Vergilius' chest. He can hear the same heart he'd torn from his chest beating away, a symbol of the man's staunch refusal to give up even in death. Despite everything, Lobelia finds its thrumming soothing. Still... is it really alright if he stays here? Lobelia doesn't want to part from Vergilius, not just yet, but he slowly begins to pick himself up in the selfish hope that he'll be dragged back down.]
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He winces with every word, coughing to clear his throat, but an ache so minor could never wipe the look of self-satisfaction of Lobelia's face, smile spanning wide.]
Heheh! I think I already have... [cough cough hack] But if you insist on making that littΓ©ral, who am I to deny you?
[But you know what? He does want praise, shameless enough to beg for it but staying his tongue, because:]
Mm, but you seem rather relaxed. Do you not intend to scold me for going against your instructions?
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Of course I intend to scold you. But part of me thinks you want it that way. After all, pain is your pleasure, is it not?
[But now he's reaching over to grasp the other's chin harshly, pulling him up. A closing of the distance, another kiss - he tastes a little bit of himself on them as he licks them over, finally pulling back without releasing his grip.]
Maybe I'll just deny you your own release, for being such a rebellious sort.
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Would you truly do something so cruel? That may cause health problems...
[Not that he's particularly worried about getting blueballed or the consequences of it, another hum of amusement pressed to Vergilius' lips when Lobelia steals a kiss.]
Mes excuses! I'll ask permission next time. Je promets, so go easy on me, hm?
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[Lobelia steals a kiss. He steals a kiss right back, as easy as anything, breath rumbling into his chest like the purr of a large feline sated after the hunt. Well, not really sated. Can he even be sated? Would he allow himself to be?]
[Even in the midst of this satisfaction, guilt still beats under the surface. Is this right? Is this atonement? But, ah, it's with Lobelia. The man is his personal source of hell, in the end.]
Be careful what you wish for. I might go so easy on you that you'll be left unsatisfied. [His fingers scrape from the side of the man's abdomen to his back. He didn't really have a chance to explore the other's body before, so swept up in the glacial movement of pure rage.] Decisions, decisions.
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I'm ticklish, you know. Quite dΓ©licat! If you insist on touching me gently, you may drive yourself mad with the sound of my laughter.
[He's goosebumping, sure, but Vergilius' touch isn't so light that it inspires spasms and laughter. There's something nice, he finds, about being explored like this. Gee, it's almost as if being desired on some level is kind of nice. Returning that little purr of satisfaction with one of his own, Lobelia leans in to take another kiss from Vergilius' lips, long and lingering.]
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[That's a trait that's for, like, kids, not someone as horrendous as Lobelia. Obviously. Then again, the remark about irritating laughter is right on point. There really is nothing more grating than a man who clearly is taking a lot of joy in getting his way.]
[Which is why, again, kisses like this feel so novel. Even he doesn't remember a time where he's been kissed like this, paid attention to like this. Colors like him are like prizes, in a certain sense, if you can get them to do what you want for them. He's Lobelia's prize, but not in the same way as before.]
[He pulls back, only to look at the man for a long moment, tousled hair and bright razor-sharp eyes and all, before he leans past him to get his target - the man's ear, once more, now being grasped firmly between his teeth in a light bite.]
[Meanwhile, his hands encircle the man, pull him more onto his lap before he tugs his thighs to hug onto him. His husky tone murmurs, the sounds rolling into the seashell-like coils of his ear.]
You wanted it before. [A challenge.] Let's see if you can get it.
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There must be something wrong with him, a thought that has only just now occurred to Lobelia and strictly because he's realized something totally fucked: the only sounds he really cares to hear in this moment are the ones made by Vergilius. Should he seek psychological help? Is he a danger to himself and others?? How troubling...]
Are you stringing me along now? How uncouth.
[He's wanted this for a while now, arousal digging into Vergilius' abdomen when he pulls him onto his lap, encircled by his thighs. Not shoving Vergilius down and taking him after sucking him off was Lobelia's attempt to feign good behavior, but he's being challenged now, isn't he?
He's being permitted to misbehave, hooking a thumb onto Vergilius' mouth to guide him back into a proper kiss, one he doesn't part from before troubling the man's bottom lip pale. He wants to be felt and explored, but he isn't done mapping Vergilius out with his reverent touch, starting first with the shoulders he's wrapped his arms around. He can appreciate Vergilius for more than his potent rage, squeezing muscle and bone beneath his fingertips while their tongues intermingle.]
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[What a mistake he has made. Hell should belong to one person alone. To have another here begets temptations he never would have dreamed of.]
[Lobelia nestles against him, like puzzle pieces slotting side by side - the arousal pressing into his abdomen is a sensation he would outwardly deny feels very welcome, indeed. He is hooked back into the kiss, hissing with the ravaging of teeth as he clacks his own in reply to nip at the invading tongue.]
[The other's arms around him are what almost make him falter - so akin to an embrace that his heart throbs with want he didn't realize before. His own hands slide over the other's hips, tugging down whatever Lobelia has left to free him completely. He has given permission. They have allowed this of each other.]
[And this is only the beginning of much ravaging to come.]
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Why is it so overwhelming now? It's the not lack of control, surely β they've simply traded control over themselves for control over each other β but something else entirely. Lobelia has never known what it is to fear another human being, and he could never be afraid of this man even if a sensible person would be, but this feeling...
...The only thing that chases the uncertainty away is a firm touch. Those warm, calloused hands. Stripped down to nothing, cool air hits hot flesh and Lobelia shivers, nails digging shallow crescents into Vergilius' back. Ah, and how long has he been sighing like this into Vergilius' mouth? Lobelia finds his attention scattered too thoroughly to focus on any particular thing, something like nerves making his every breath shake on the exhale, something like a need he's ever known. Very odd indeed, and yet he presses himself further into Vergilius' lap, eager for his warm hands to chase away these unusual feelings.]
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[A part of him feels like he's toppling down a hole never to return, like a pebble tossed into a dark well.]
[And he's welcoming it. Damn it. Why? Why is he...?]
[One hand circles back to the other's groin, diving between them to stroke along the underside of the man's cock. Somehow he knows his scars are adding to the experience, and he rubs there, a little smirk alighting his mouth and his eyes. More of a blatant tease.]
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He thought he loved Vergilius, genuinely, but the truth of the matter has begun to dawn on Lobelia: infatuation is fleeting, and indeed, that obsession with Vergilius prior to their death was nothing but a passing fixation. In its place are the seeds of those confusing, overwhelming feelings, and a need to be with him that goes further than the thought of claiming ownership over his heart in a quite literal way.
Maybe this is what genuine love roots fromβ an intimate touch, wanting someone and being wanted by them in turn. It's familiar in a way that's almost painful, leaning into Vergilius' every touch like it's only natural, like he never understood how he survived without it.
He jolts when Vergilius' fingers find the underside of his cock, moans spilling into their kiss before he knows what's hit him, and something else occurs to Lobelia. His defenses are down, almost entirely, a revelation that startles him after a lifetime spent carefully watching his own back just in case comeuppance managed to find him. What makes it worse is that smirk, that damned smirk, and catching it glinting him Vergilius' eyes while drawing a breath sets something on fire in Lobelia. Le bΓ’tard.
He can only imagine how much sooner he would have found his death if anyone, anyone in the universe could rile him up as effortlessly as Vergilius. Tipping forward, Lobelia brings them both down against the robes and the flowers and the grass stains they'll have to die to remove from their clothing after the mess they'll make of each other. Straddling him on bent elbows, Lobelia carves his way back into Vergilius' mouth and pants his name into it, over and over, some sick imitation of the spell he's put him under. If this feeling, up until now, had only been infatuation, how much worse is it going to get?]
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[It's a fact of the profession. No close bonds. What you have can easily be lost in an instant. You can have your acquaintances, but to keep someone intimately close is a fool's errand in the City. Of course, you had exceptions to the matter, and even love can still bloom on the battlefield, but any Fixer worth their weight in salt knew that in order to keep moving without falling into despair, they had to cut human connection like errant vines of a weed.]
[Vergilius learned that lesson in the worst way possible. Even he, with his attempts, and his pitiful soft heart, had the fact beaten into him. Everyone he loved would be taken from him. He cannot love again. Even the young girl at home, the one whose hope he would run the world for, was still a point of weakness. Best to shut everyone else out and keep moving.]
[So why...so how....so what is happening here? Lobelia is close, so close, and he should be shutting him out like before. Why does he want more? Is he this isolated and lonely as to grasp onto this and desire more? Is that right? Is it merely a physical trick? It hardly seems like that the more this goes on. He feels like he's doing his best not to stare at the sun beating so hotly on his shoulders. An obvious fact he still wants to deny.]
[But even in denial, he's rushed along in the flood of it all. More moans. More pitches of Lobelia's voice. More of this heated body, plaintive movements, more. More. More.]
[He's easily tipped over, strong arms encircling the other's body as he gasps at his own name being repeated like a desperate hymn of worship. And he, as adored relic, returns the favor with a rolling, needy movement of his hips, his own voice trying to crack through the litany of sound Lobelia is pouring onto him.]
Lob..elia...
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Perhaps there truly is something wrong with his head, finding that isolation bothers him only in the absence of someone who he actually desires to be with. The idea of this moment coming to an end frustrates Lobelia, saddens him, already mourning the loss of warmth and intimacy that's oh so novel to him. Be that as it may, he can't imagine himself tiring of itβ not as he has of killing, of destruction, of looking for meaning in the rubble left behind.]
Vergilius...
[...He's not going to last a second inside of this man, is he? It's with that and a few other selfish thoughts in mind that Lobelia fumbles for the lube, successfully managing to blindly grope around the grass to find the bottle. Eager as he is to rut against Vergilius, answer friction with friction, he can do him one better. With a lilting, dizzied laugh, Lobelia sits himself up on Vergilius' lap and uncaps the bottle of lubricant.]
I said that I would do anything to please you, non...? So autorise moi.
[Lobelia knows what he wants, fingers settled around the base of Vergilius' shaft while his other hand upends the bottle to drizzle it with lube. He knows what he wants, but he asks for permission regardless, boring holes into those dazzling red eyes and awaiting his confirmation. Greedy as he is, this is a concession Lobelia makes in earnest.]
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[The other draws back, and Vergilius's eyes, ever piercing, fixate on the other's face. A quick glance between him, the bottle clumsily grabbed, and the position that connects dots. He lets out a shaky, heated exhale - (how in the world is he already so ready so quick? it's happened twice, both with THIS man of all people) - before hissing between gritted teeth at the wet cool sensation.]
[He's asking permission. Again, an outstretched hand. Vergilius stares into Lobelia's eyes as if he can see past them, fray the man muscle fiber by muscle fiber to see within. He knows what he's asking for. And this time, after everything, he relents to it.]
[He nods, hand reaching up to press his fingertips on the line of the other's thigh. The tip of his wounded thumb burns with the contact.]
Go ahead.
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Merci.
[The selfish man in him (read: all of him) wants to hold onto Vergilius' hand, but he'll need both of his own to steady himself. He wasn't nearly so self-aware the first time they had sex, interested less in the intimacy of the act and more on stripping Vergilius of any other choice in the matter.
Now? Now he's painfully aware of the eyes on him as he lifts his hips, positions himself over the tip of Vergilius' cock and slowly lowers himself onto it. Ah. Ahhh. Not preparing himself first was a mistake, but not one he allows himself to linger on, working through the full-body shivers to acclimate to the stretch. He's not one to easily admit when he's erred, however...]
...Aie. Where was your guidance when I needed it?
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[It's tight, of course - even he's feeling the strain as the man lets him sink deeper and deeper. What a fool. Smart as a whip, but a fool nevertheless.]
[His thumb seems to burn with a different kind of warmth from the kiss.]
You wanted this. Actions have...consequences. [He manages to say after a moment, the gravel of his voice almost hiding the whine of his words.] If anyone, blame yourself.
[But not one to simply elect for complaint, he moves on, hands holding onto the other's hips as he, too, gets used to the core of heat he's now buried into. He had it once before. He didn't care to linger on it...then, at least.]
Doesn't matter when I'll...still make you limp around this damned garden by the time we're- ergh - done.
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And yet.
At what point did he stop calculating every detail of their relationship? Lobelia chokes out a laugh at his own expense, so eager for this warmth, this mutuality that logic has been thrown entirely to the wayside. Perhaps some part of his brain didn't manage to respawn along with the rest of him, but at least this overbearing tightness is the sort of throbbing pain he can live with, even enjoy. Vergilius, on the other hand...]
Is it dΓ©sagrΓ©able? In your position... I would be protesting a little more loudly.
[If you ask him, they'll both be limping around the garden by the time they're through here.]
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[Comes the sharp retort - a little sign that the Vergilius everyone knows and can't stand is most certainly still here. Even in the midst of sex, he can't help being a grumpy curmudgeon.]
[That being said, though, he's using this little pause not only to get adjusted to the feeling (he swallows, feeling the ache and throb of arousal beating within the man, a sensation that makes a thin line of sweat draw a line down his forehead) but also to grasp the man by the thighs as he shoots a challenging look upwards.]
[He digs his heels in, pressing hips upward with a decisive shift- as if by movement he can threaten to break the man in two.]
Get a...move on. I'll ruin you yet.
[And yet, haven't they both already been ruined?]
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Heheh... Is that so? I think you've forgotten... who's in control here.
[He shifts, knees squared on either side of Vergilius' hips, and gradually lifts himself. The sensation feels brand new, foreign all over again, but it won't for long. He's already begun to crave this again, desiring the heat and the contact and the pain in equal measure, that desire made all the more clear to him when he sharply drops back down on Vergilius' hips to pin them back to the ground where they belong.
It smarts, but of course it does. Lobelia is certain the ache is mutual, but he gathers his bearings quickly and palms Vergilius' shoulders to anchor himself. His vision's blurring up again, tight to an almost painful degree, but that doesn't stop Lobelia from dropping himself onto Vergilius' hips over and over again, the clap of skin on skin echoing in his ears.]
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[But here, even as the man says it, is it really "control"? Lobelia is moving now, finally, impaled on him, making him move deeper and deeper with every downward slap of the hips. Vergilius could easily turn the tides, here. He's strong enough to, and he knows Lobelia knows that. And yet, here they are, with the magician in being more of a vulnerable state than he makes it come off at.]
[And Vergilius, he doesn't want to take advantage of that. It's something that surprises even him, lost in the midst of his own cascade of low uttered moans from the way the other moves. His hands slide up, mapping out muscle, before resting softly on the ridges of his upper spine. It hurts. It's wonderfully pleasant. Again, and again, and again.]
[His request comes out, almost keening, from the depths of his throat.]
More. More.
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The option is there, but Lobelia won't take it. No more harm will befall this man unless he wills it, be it harm wrought by Lobelia's hands or anyone else. That's just as it should be, an adequate price to pay for the happiness he's shown him, the pain he blesses him with every time he drops his hips.]
...Tu es gourmand, Vergilius.
[But it's not just pain he's blessed with. Hearing Vergilius moan, feeling his hands trace along his body for no other reason than to feel him, demanding more of him... all of that quickly eclipses the ache, replacing it with something much more pleasant. Lobelia feels that heat burn deep in his gut and adjusts his posture not to chase that pleasure, but to draw this moment on as long as he can, pitched forward to eclipse Vergilius.
Before, he would've acted more selfishly, tilting his hips forward so every downward thrust would make the head of Vergilius' cock strike his prostate, but not now. Not now. Lobelia bites his bottom lip, every shivering exhale passing through his teeth. More. More. He gives Vergilius what he wants, fucking himself on him with even more verve, and he finds that he can't stop staring at him. Why would he want to look anywhere else?]
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[But maybe he just never knew what he wanted. Up until this point, desire was never a thought on his mind. So what's this feeling when he looks up at Lobelia's gasping, pleased face as he thrusts so eagerly against him? His eyes shine their characteristic red, but there's a warmth that infuses them as he feels the tension tighten and twist like a potent knot at their point of union. His back feels a little irritated, even with robe below protecting him from shifting directly against plant and ground. The man might be physically less stronger, but the intensity is nothing to sneeze at.]
[Mutuality requires cooperation. In a move he never would've done before, one hand moves to dive down between them. His fingers fumble, before holding firm over Lobelia's shaft, his mouth alighting with a glimmer of a smile as he pumps in tandem with him, a matched rhythm.]
Lobelia...
[If he'll go over, he wants to have Lobelia go over with him.]
[.....Ah, that's greedy, isn't it?]
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The flames his hand stokes are much more familiar, eliciting a wave of shivers and the low, guttering moans to match. His fingers, once firmly grasping Vergilius' shoulders, have begun to quiver. That smile... It's almost unnerving, so different from what Lobelia is used to from the man. All the same, it's alluring, inviting, and Lobelia gives into the temptation to lean in and kiss him.
It's a mess of heavy breaths and clicking teeth, his attention too thoroughly divided between one source of pleasure and the next, Vergilius' palm stained damp with his precum. With each passing moment, he throws down more and more of his weight onto Vergilius' hips, the cadence of their bodies as pleasing to his ears as it is to every other part of him. He won't last much longer, his kisses devolving to little more than shameless panting into Vergilius' mouth, but he resists the urge to come as long as he can. A little more time to remain like this, a little more time to savor it, and more importantly, if this bliss must end, he wants it to end right where it beganβ with Vergilius.]
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[He is no longer conscious of the garden around them. He's not even fully conscious of their state here, as the dead grasping onto something that for a moment makes them feel alive like nothing before. There's only Lobelia. It all seems to begin and end with him, from the way their bodies press into each other, mouths gasping for air.]
[He can't help but writhe a little as he feels himself continue to move into the other man with reckless abandon, trying to focus on keeping the pace as his hand strokes and grips and keeps hold where he can. Lobelia. Lobelia. Lobelia. The man had ripped out his heart. For some reason the scene comes to mind with no prompting. The pain in his chest like a macabre blossoming flower, the heat of the other's hand inside of him, glinting white teeth set in a pretty, boyish face...]
Ah...
[A hiccup, a gasp, and a groan is all that warns the man as it all seems to crash together, his climax hitting hard as he thrusts his hips up one last time, feeling little twitches of shockwaves moving through his body. One last kiss, stolen as he feels his hand give one last languid stroke to Lobelia, hoping to feel a stream of heat in return.]
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Lobelia is as enlivened as he is spent, overwhelmed, that odd dichotomy raging inside of him while he presses sloppy kisses to Vergilius' mouth, savoring every ragged whisper. Lobelia, Lobelia, Lobelia. He's never cared much for his name, it holds a different significance to him now.
"Love and devotion," his parents told him. "That's what lobelias represent." How ironic that he's found some truth to his name after all.
Lobelia rides that wave as far as it will take them, eventually ceding to the hazy afterglow and resting his head on Vergilius' chest. He can hear the same heart he'd torn from his chest beating away, a symbol of the man's staunch refusal to give up even in death. Despite everything, Lobelia finds its thrumming soothing. Still... is it really alright if he stays here? Lobelia doesn't want to part from Vergilius, not just yet, but he slowly begins to pick himself up in the selfish hope that he'll be dragged back down.]
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