[This stubborn old man... The look on his face betrays what he's thinking, that he can skirt his way out of this by getting him off and dipping as soon as the deed is done. Lobelia doesn't like that, receptive to his touch on only a physiological level, staring up at Vergilius as if measuring something intangible. Scheming.]
Non, you would much rather I dig the answers out of you, I'm sure.
[That can easily be arranged... but he'd rather not get viscera and gore all over a shared bed. Ripping Vergilius apart will have to wait, and in the interim, he's going to rip apart his poor attempt at a handjob.]
C'est terrible! Have you never heard of lotion? If you keep going like that, we'll be here all day!
[Not that Lobelia minds, mischief in his eyes while he sizes Vergilius up. Still... it's not like Lobelia is slinging mud just for the sake of it. Vergilius' half-hearted effort are making it impossible to stay hard, and completely unnecessarily, Lobelia yawns.]
[Don't call him out as a hit it and quit it type, Lobelia! Except that's what he is, sighing in response to the insults. In fact, stubbornly, and clearly annoyed, he's simply just going to draw his hands back to fold his arms and stare down at the man underneath him. If he wasn't so stern, he'd probably be putting on a pout.]
You didn't prepare anything for me. I don't even know if you have lube. Then again...you have no experience. What should I expect?
[Now throwing it right back with the digs in return. Not HIS fault if this is going poorly because Lobelia is a virgin. Clearly.]
[He's just calling it as he sees it, Gramps! Maybe Vergilius has never deflowered a pure innocent maiden before? Lobelia is certainly not that, but the point still stands.
Impatience makes Lobelia want to throw a fist into the side of Vergilius' head and see if that gets the blood going any better, buuut...]
...In the nightstand, friend. It reeks of artificial coconut, but it will suffice, non? If you're uncertain, I can be the one to take you instead.
[What about it, Vergilius? Was that ass bioengineered to withstand high impact sexual violence?]
[Maybe it IS bioengineered for that! Not that Lobelia will ever find out! Probably!]
Hrm.
[He'll swing his leg behind him so he can move to stand and go over to the nightstand in question, rummaging. He finds the thing, and...chucks it back onto the bed, near Lobelia's head.]
[He comes back around to his previous position, shifting to let his hips lower down before giving the other his characteristic disgruntled look.]
How bad do you really even want this? [....Something has to happen here. He understands that. But also he wants to see what its like to have that displeased little pinch of an expression and a worn smile on Lobelia's face. He bends down to place a kiss between the other's clavicles, red eyes glancing to watch the other's expression.] One wonders.
[He's already begun to lose his patience, having expected Vergilius might go the lengths to make this as unpleasant as possible but still managing to find that fact disappointing. This is what Vergilius owes him for allowing him out of The Tower's world, so remaining obstinate flies in the face of fulfilling his end of the bargain. With that in mind, maybe it's time to be far less lenient with the man.
Settling back with his arms tucked up above his head, Lobelia looks Vergilius up and down, settling on the exact details of his plan.]
I would've preferred if you upheld your end of the bargain by choice, but I don't mind taking what I want from you by force. What other choice have you left me with?
[A strange but nevertheless familiar hum starts up again, a gradual buzz that works its way up from the tip of Vergilius' toes to the top of his head. At the same time, Lobelia sits up to face him, planting either palm on Vergilius' shoulders. Slowly, gradually, the vibration escalates in intensity. This is a warning.]
Ne t'inquiète pas, Vergilius. Rest your old bones. I'm more than capable of taking it from here.
[There it is. Beautiful frustration. Delicious impatience. The satisfaction of someone clearly not happy that he's not doing this the way he's wanted. He can't help but let the light of his own amusement flicker in his eyes as the other draws up. Even the vibration that courses through his body might be irritating enough, but it doesn't quite abate his mood.]
[To him, it doesn't feel like a warning, but a bluff he can take advantage of. It's still distasteful to engage in this sort of thing, of course, but now that the other has finally made a move, he feels he's allowed his chance of movement too. He reaches up with a vibrating hand to grasp the other's throat, before moving in to capture the other's lips, teeth grating against the other's. Nothing as hard and forceful as their first kiss (Lobelia-given), but definitely teasing enough, with a squeeze of his fingers.]
[...That smirk. Denying him any sort of real pleasure was the goal all along, wasn't it? Go figure. Lobelia doesn't find it anywhere near as humorous, huffing his frustration into Vergilius' mouth. In this constant tug of war between them, neither of them can win for long.
Between kisses, a thin whisperβ raw, unrestrained.]
[If Vergilius can't amuse him, he'll outlive his purpose sooner than he realizes. No... Vergilius already has, and maybe he did long before he met Lobelia. To put this old dog down would be merciful, wouldn't it? Pleasurable, even, far more so than kisses given to him only out of spite, touches that anger him more than relieve him.
So Lobelia's had enough. He won't kill Vergilius, not now where his mess would be too difficult to clean up afterwards, but he'll fill him with so much regret that he'll wish for the merciful embrace of death.
The pressure of those vibrations ratchets up considerably, and were Vergilius a normal man, they would be enough to completely immobilize him. Instead, Lobelia shoves Vergilius to the bed and drops himself in his lap, a portent of things to come.]
What was it you said to me before? "Fuck you"? We say things a little differently where I come from.
[Bending down low, Lobelia bites into the side of Vergilius' neck, promising bruises over that carotid artery.]
Va te faire foutre. [Another bite.] TΓͺte de noeud. [Another bite, this one harder.] Roi des cons. [Can be break the skin, he wonders? Lobelia's certainly trying.]
[He wonders how long the worm will writhe in its sickening void-like hunger.]
[Because that's all Lobelia will ever do, right? Everything will be disappointment to him. Even if he gets the upper hand, there's the keen sense of victory that this will only be a drop of water in the depths of a dried up well.]
[The vibrations strengthen - he can feel his teeth chattering in his mouth, but the muscles of his inhuman body become taut like a rope out of reflex. He's shaking, but he stands as stubborn and immutable as a statue. Maybe that's all he is. Even if he burns out, this body will remain, like a resolute reminder of the journey of Inferno.]
[He gives Lobelia the chance to eke out his frustration. One bite is met with no sound. The second one is met with a little sigh, a pleased sensation shooting down his spine with a new sense of warmth that moves in waves with the vibrations, as if he is a transmitter for signals making his cells come alive. Vergilius's hand moves away from the throat to grasp behind his head. Not to pull him away, or push him in, but to keep him stable.]
[The spoken phrases only make the shine of teeth in his mouth shine all the brighter when he smiles.]
How pitiful it is. Giving me what you want from me. [He whispers into the other's ear, husky and hot against the edge.] Jealousy is an ugly thing. But it suits you, doesn't it?
[Happiness, frustration, disappointment, relief. What does any of it matter now? Maybe that's the point Vergilius is trying to impress upon him, letting Lobelia know that no amount of fighting towards what he desires is going to get him any closer to it. He's damned, beyond redemption, and Vergilius will ensure he knows it.
So yeah. Fuck him, but in French. He can feel those thrills and shivers running through Vergilius with every bite he leaves on his skin, but two isn't enough. Three and four and five won't be enough.
Sitting up, Lobelia gives Vergilius one last chance to spare himself from utter destruction and is met with a with a big, bright, cocky smile instead. As they say in his homeland, Baise ta mère.]
You'll never be able to satisfy me, will you? That's such a shame, Vergilius. Really. I was hoping to keep you alive for a while longer.
Ah, but you've made me happy nevertheless! Maybe the risk is worth the reward? What if I end you right here and now? How will you pleurer in your final moments?
[But it's not enough to injure Vergilius when he can't savor the rasp of his breath against his ear, so he leans back down to impress his teeth upon his neck, his shoulder, leaving a litany of ugly mottled bruises in his wake.]
[Ah, that smile. It might have actually been a bit attractive on anyone else. But an arrogant creature is still a creature in the end. No amount of grand elegant words and acts of showmanship would be able to hide that.]
[As if to emphasize that point, here comes the fist to his face. If Lobelia were augmented like him, it could be a decent blow. As it is, it simply smarts. The punch is nothing to his words, because as Vergilius shakes his head and scowls slightly after the impact, its the implicit threat that makes his eyes narrow.]
[...Would he end him here and now? It's laughable. But then again, that power of his, the pain that had blossomed in his legs with a mere snap of his fingers...that's something to chew on as something approaching an actual threat. He hasn't seen all that Lobelia is capable of.]
[And Lobelia has not seen all that he is capable of.]
[The mouth descends on his throat and shoulder - he feels a little more stirring of heat course through his body, as much as he tries to restrain it. No. There will be no dying today. Not if he can help it.]
[He hisses into the other's ear, through gritted teeth.]
You're really going to give up that easily? Pathetic.
[With that, he's suddenly using a hand to push Lobelia upwards - and before the other can retort, the upper half of his body is moving at horrific speed.]
[His head slams against the other's chest with the strength of an iron hammer, the audible cracking of a few ribs singing in the air.]
[Vergilius wastes no time. His head drawn back, he's attacking the other's mouth with renewed gusto, one hand pressing against the small of the other's back to pull him flush against him, heated skin against heated skin.]
[Giving up? Him? What nerve Vergilius has, accusing him when there's some semblance of truth behind his words. That just pisses Lobelia off further, tempts him into knotting his fingers into another fist with every intention of knocking the teeth from Vergilius' skull... but that doesn't happen.
Vergilius doesn't allow it to happen.
Such a spry old thing, springing forward like a bullet propelled from a gun, and the rest eludes him. His vision goes white, black, then red, the moments in between silent until the sound of his breaking ribs shatters that momentary reverie. Suddenly, it's oh so loud, the silence filled with so much noise that Lobelia can barely keep track of it all.
At some point, he called out. Yelled. Screamed. Cried. Beyond that, the splintering of several ribs echoes on Lobelia's head, the heave of blood past his lips from the internal punctures those splintered bones and cartilage have resulted in. Each half-breath taken is a stolen, painful thing, reeking of iron and tasting just as sickeningly sweet.
He's never been hurt like this before, his victims so easily subdued that none could lay so much as a finger on him. Pain this severe makes it impossible to think, to speak, sputtering blood in between their kiss. It's all he can do, coughing and heaving against Vergilius' lips, but he doesn't draw away. Even if Vergilius allowed him to, he wouldn't.
Instead, Lobelia's shaking hands come up to drag along Vergilius' back, promising him yet more scars, more bruises, more spilt blood, while he moans in agony into their kiss. This is it, isn't it? This has to be it. Happiness. Joy. Purpose. And if it isn't... no. Right now, the last thing Lobelia will consider is how empty and joyless his life truly is.]
[It's something he'll never show. But as much as Lobelia is choking on his own spit and blood after cries of pain, Vergilius is choking in his own way, too. He's always been choking. He doesn't know when the guilt started in his life. He doesn't know when he started looking at himself with self-pity as just another cog in the City, and how that fact made the anger sit in his bones like an insidious poison seeping to his core. Violence is his being. And here he perpetuates it, like nothing else, because it is what he is.]
[He is what he always will be.]
[It then comes of no surprise, in the reckless capture of lips again and again, almost threatening to steal oxygen, that he's hard. He isn't one to enjoy inflicting pain - weapons typically don't. But there's something about this, about the sudden shiver and moan of the man in his grip, that makes him feel like he's descending into a sort of madness. He tastes blood on his tongue. He wants it to seep into his soul. It isn't about pain, no, he thinks. Not quite.]
[It's about destruction.]
[He finds his hips jutting upwards in the tangling of their bodies, his own groan singing from the inside of his chest. It wasn't enough. It feels like enough now.]
[What agonizing pain. It burns through Lobelia like a fire resisting containment and leaving no inch of him immune, but in the midst of all that agony, a strange sort of pleasure emerges. It's not unfamiliar, not nearly, but it's so much more intense than he's ever felt it before. It's an awakening, a transcendence, a realization that there's more to happiness than meting out destruction and ending lives.
His own life is finite, painfully finite, and this agony serves as a very potent reminder of that. Some day, death will find him too. Some day, he'll suffer every agony he's ever inflicted on others until he's experienced all their pain in full. And one day, he'll die the same death Vergilius will too.
He's found it, hasn't he? Finally, finally, finally. Death will be his happiness, his salvation. The only people who ever truly made him happy were Papa and Maman, and he'll meet them again too in the great beyond. Surely, surely, surely.
But none of that matters now. The pain is too distracting, the only thing coming close to it being the throb of Vergilius' arousal against his hips. It's mutual, Lobelia's hand coming down not to focus on his own pleasure but to take them both in his palm and messily jerk at their lengths. A shame he can't stop rasping and wheezing long enough to call Vergilius out for his fucked up kinks, having never shied away from hypocrisy.]
[He never will. Of course its a possibility. Of course, he's not some grand immortal, unable to be touched. He's a scarred, aging man whose life can still be cut short even as powerful as he is. But it never weighs on his mind. As long as he is alive. that's all that matters.]
[He will keep moving forward, to the point where his breath runs out.]
[The hand shot down between them down below to grasp both of them makes his breath hitch and grunt. Vergilius tilts his head to press deep kiss after deep kiss to his jawline, over his neck, finally just losing himself a little in the sensation of it all. Another jerk of the hips against Lobelia's hand comes with a hiss as his fingers snake up the other's spine, pressure a little too hard to be comfortable.]
[It's some twisted ouroboros, pleasure begetting pleasure, pain begetting pain, and Lobelia loses track of where his body ends and Vergilius' begins. They really are the same, aren't they? Creatures of habit, they understand the language of destruction like it's been coded into their DNA. The Tower understands Lobelia just as well, but he can't speak to it, not on the same level as another human being, only intuiting its endless desire to destroy the existing world in preparation for the birth of the next.
What else could love be but two people who understand each other so wholly? Maybe Vergilius understands their connection now, unable to disentangle himself now that he's swallowed his own tail in pursuit of that destruction. Lobelia moves into it β every bite, every hard press of calloused fingers β in search of his own demise, exhaling pleasure and agony in equal measure.
Still, he isn't done yet. He has one thing left to live for, and that thing is peppering him with kisses that ooze the same sweetness as dried blood. Lobelia's struggling to hold up his own weight, giving up on the venture in favor of tangling his fingers in Vergilius' hair and tugging his bangs out of the way. What do those crimson eyes look like now, he wonders? Through the haze of exertion and tears, all Lobelia can see is how brightly they glow. Belle, now more than ever.]
[He's known love. Maybe not love in forms like this, but love from family, love from friends, love from children.]
[Is this love...? He hardly thinks so. If it is, though, maybe that's what he deserves. Maybe this is the weight of his karma finally coming home to roost. Maybe in the end, he'll lose himself like sand in the waters of a raging river, never to be put together again.]
[Lobelia moves aside his bangs, and of course, the eponymous red gaze is what greets him, glow almost swallowing the outline of the eyes they come from. A gaze to fray whatever it stares at, and here, it almost stares at nothing and everything. It blazes too hot, and yet there's something cold about it at the same time, a paradoxical lantern at the bottom of the deep dark ocean.]
[The eyes flit to Lobelia's face as he continues to let his body take the reins, his chest pressing against the battered and broken ribs as if to rub it in. More pain. More agony.]
[Welcome to his world, Lobelia.]
Ah...
[A light little noise, contrasting with the reckless movement of hips and abdomen below, throbbing with need.]
[Perhaps a part of it seems desperate, eager for that release, and knowing it won't be enough. And knowing it is what he deserves.]
[What else could it be but love? He's never been so susceptible to touch before, never knew it to be as warming and grounding and fulfilling as regular folk do. Lobelia could hold someone's hand or hug them close to his body and feel nothing at all, having long given up on the notion that he ever would, but he's different now. He's changed.
Love changed him, surely, receptive to every touch Vergilius lays upon his body. Rough hands on his bruised and battered ribs sway him, leave him writhing, hissing through his teeth and clenching them tight in an effort not to let them chatter.
So much pain. So much agony. Vergilius rewards him in spades, letting Lobelia know nothing else so long as his hands are on him. As if to return that favor, he catches that needy sigh and focuses his efforts on the tip of Vergilius' cock. He'll hit his own limit soon enough, he's sure, but he needn't touch himself to get there. This unrelenting pain is more than enough.]
[How funny, how Lobelia seemed like such a nuisance before, like a gnat. Here, he just feels like something to subsume into himself. A piece of clay swept up into the frame of a single-minded lumbering colossus. He would hate the idea of Lobelia actually being a part of him, because even as self-hating as he is, the last thing he wants is to assume he's anywhere close to this beast of a man. But here, in his arms, he almost feels like he could activate that power, new yet familiar, and drain the man's blood to soak entirely within it.]
[In the end, Lobelia is a broken, pathetic thing. And he is here to make sure that stays the case, isn't he?]
[The other's efforts on him get him what he wants - there's a sudden gasp, and then a different sort of sigh when he feels the heat flare and tip over, coating the other's abdomen with a new sort of heat. He finally signs the whole thing with a bite to the other's shoulder, not hard enough to break skin, but a way to hum into it in a pale imitation of the other's power to buzz through his body.]
[He could care less if Lobelia follows after him, at this point.]
[There's that wet heat splattering against his abdomen, weighty and unfamiliar, leading Lobelia to wonder if he's managed to bleed clean through his skin... but he glances down and finds himself disappointed that that isn't the case after all. He'd laugh if only he had the oxygen to spare, and his release follows shortly after Vergilius' with little care for where that mess lands, sighs interspersed with hisses of pain, all of it so pleasant.
It was that final bite that sent him over the tipping point, Lobelia dimly realizes, and manages a huff of amusement when he can't manage a laugh. The vibrations snaking their way through Vergilius' flesh gradually dissipate to nothing, the hazy aftermath of release something vaguely pleasurable.
It feels as if he's stolen this moment from Vergilius, and that feels right, denying this man happiness. All the same, he can't deny that they've found their middle ground in destruction and pain. For once, perhaps it's alright in indulge in this pale imitation of mutuality.]
...Quelle pagaille. Even you are not entirely impartial.
[The heat that he feels splashing against him makes him murmur imperceptibly against the other's skin. There he goes. Even through a fog of agony and pain.]
[As he slowly lets himself ease his breath back to stability, he realizes something is missing. The vibrations have eased off. The little aftershocks and tremors moving through his spine and out his limbs. How odd, it feels, that he almost misses the buzzing feeling. Here, he is again reminded of this sinewed, resolute husk of a body.]
[It almost feels empty, but then again, isn't that what he's used to? Isn't that what he deserves?]
[He draws back with glimmering eyes, finally aiming a scowl at the other.]
...Whatever.
[Irritation comes rising up like an old friend clapping a hand on the shoulder. He pulls his hands back to himself, but he isn't fully removing himself just yet.]
[The pale imitation stands at least for now. A dot. A moment.]
[It feels a bit hollow, doesn't it? Lobelia sees the look in Vergilius' eyes and suspects he must feel the same way. Even this pain, settling into a bone-deep throb, fails to satisfy him once Vergilus draws away. How strange. How insufferable, to think he's losing something by putting some modicum of distance between them.
Neither of them have moved far, Lobelia lying back on the mattress, breaths scattered. That scowl can't coax laughter out of Lobelia when laughter is oh so painful, but it does coax him into a thin, genuine smile.]
Are you satisfied?
[There's no mockery in Lobelia's tone, no insincerity. That's odd coming from him, but that endlessly deep, empty feeling cuts deep. Hollowed out, he very much doubts anything can fill him, but that pale imitation of mutuality comes close enough.]
You could kill me now if you wanted to. What's stopping you?
[What would come as an acerbic barb as a statement usually now comes as something dimly stated. A candle, flickering in the dark. He should already know the answer. There is no true satisfaction to hold onto, and even if there was, he would pull away from it himself.]
[That question also echoes with what he has asked Lobelia before. Are you happy?]
[He threads his hand through his own bangs to flip them back, mouth pulled in a tight grimace. He glances towards the blossoming bruises on Lobelia's chest. Flowers for him, in their own way. And yes. He could kill him. It would be so easy. And yet...]
[And he knows it was. There's no happiness to be found outside of the raw, cutting edge of his pain, that sharp throb in his ribcage all that remains of it. As with all things, even this happiness will fade away into nothing.
How very poetic. How very sad.
With a thin sigh, Lobelia's eyes travel down to the mottled mess of bruises on his ribcage, the rapidly drying aftermath of their little tryst. It's almost comical how much he misses that initial impact, the feeling of being wanted when he's never been wanted before, but he don't delude himself into thinking it's him Vergilius wants. Even that is a delusion too far for Lobelia.]
You've figured it out, haven't you? Non... You've been saying so since the start. Nothing in life will make me happy. Not for anything more than a few fleeting moments at a time. The only ones who truly made me happy are long gone.
[Perhaps in an earlier time he would hold sympathy for what he is hearing. But the man he is now is someone who has lost everything, and tried to dry up any shred of goodwill in his chest in an attempt to continue moving. No more good connections with others. People should always be held at a distance. They don't need him, he doesn't need them. That's the way it should be.]
[The well of his karma will claim no more lives than his own.]
[He lets a breath whistle out between his teeth. His hand reaches out, splays against that wounded chest. Does Lobelia have a heart? Or is it a void underneath? He wonders.]
[Two monsters, indeed.]
You're like an addict chasing a high. Pushing a stone up a hill, and you'll never reach the top. [He tilts his head, his earring catching a little light from the movement.] Who even made you happy? A lover? A friend? Family?
[Imagining Lobelia truly caring for anyone seems like a fantasy.]
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Non, you would much rather I dig the answers out of you, I'm sure.
[That can easily be arranged... but he'd rather not get viscera and gore all over a shared bed. Ripping Vergilius apart will have to wait, and in the interim, he's going to rip apart his poor attempt at a handjob.]
C'est terrible! Have you never heard of lotion? If you keep going like that, we'll be here all day!
[Not that Lobelia minds, mischief in his eyes while he sizes Vergilius up. Still... it's not like Lobelia is slinging mud just for the sake of it. Vergilius' half-hearted effort are making it impossible to stay hard, and completely unnecessarily, Lobelia yawns.]
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You didn't prepare anything for me. I don't even know if you have lube. Then again...you have no experience. What should I expect?
[Now throwing it right back with the digs in return. Not HIS fault if this is going poorly because Lobelia is a virgin. Clearly.]
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Impatience makes Lobelia want to throw a fist into the side of Vergilius' head and see if that gets the blood going any better, buuut...]
...In the nightstand, friend. It reeks of artificial coconut, but it will suffice, non? If you're uncertain, I can be the one to take you instead.
[What about it, Vergilius? Was that ass bioengineered to withstand high impact sexual violence?]
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[Maybe it IS bioengineered for that! Not that Lobelia will ever find out! Probably!]
Hrm.
[He'll swing his leg behind him so he can move to stand and go over to the nightstand in question, rummaging. He finds the thing, and...chucks it back onto the bed, near Lobelia's head.]
[He comes back around to his previous position, shifting to let his hips lower down before giving the other his characteristic disgruntled look.]
How bad do you really even want this? [....Something has to happen here. He understands that. But also he wants to see what its like to have that displeased little pinch of an expression and a worn smile on Lobelia's face. He bends down to place a kiss between the other's clavicles, red eyes glancing to watch the other's expression.] One wonders.
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Settling back with his arms tucked up above his head, Lobelia looks Vergilius up and down, settling on the exact details of his plan.]
I would've preferred if you upheld your end of the bargain by choice, but I don't mind taking what I want from you by force. What other choice have you left me with?
[A strange but nevertheless familiar hum starts up again, a gradual buzz that works its way up from the tip of Vergilius' toes to the top of his head. At the same time, Lobelia sits up to face him, planting either palm on Vergilius' shoulders. Slowly, gradually, the vibration escalates in intensity. This is a warning.]
Ne t'inquiète pas, Vergilius. Rest your old bones. I'm more than capable of taking it from here.
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[There it is. Beautiful frustration. Delicious impatience. The satisfaction of someone clearly not happy that he's not doing this the way he's wanted. He can't help but let the light of his own amusement flicker in his eyes as the other draws up. Even the vibration that courses through his body might be irritating enough, but it doesn't quite abate his mood.]
[To him, it doesn't feel like a warning, but a bluff he can take advantage of. It's still distasteful to engage in this sort of thing, of course, but now that the other has finally made a move, he feels he's allowed his chance of movement too. He reaches up with a vibrating hand to grasp the other's throat, before moving in to capture the other's lips, teeth grating against the other's. Nothing as hard and forceful as their first kiss (Lobelia-given), but definitely teasing enough, with a squeeze of his fingers.]
[He wants to throw him off course.]
What about now?
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Between kisses, a thin whisperβ raw, unrestrained.]
Je vais te dΓ©truire.
[If Vergilius can't amuse him, he'll outlive his purpose sooner than he realizes. No... Vergilius already has, and maybe he did long before he met Lobelia. To put this old dog down would be merciful, wouldn't it? Pleasurable, even, far more so than kisses given to him only out of spite, touches that anger him more than relieve him.
So Lobelia's had enough. He won't kill Vergilius, not now where his mess would be too difficult to clean up afterwards, but he'll fill him with so much regret that he'll wish for the merciful embrace of death.
The pressure of those vibrations ratchets up considerably, and were Vergilius a normal man, they would be enough to completely immobilize him. Instead, Lobelia shoves Vergilius to the bed and drops himself in his lap, a portent of things to come.]
What was it you said to me before? "Fuck you"? We say things a little differently where I come from.
[Bending down low, Lobelia bites into the side of Vergilius' neck, promising bruises over that carotid artery.]
Va te faire foutre. [Another bite.] TΓͺte de noeud. [Another bite, this one harder.] Roi des cons. [Can be break the skin, he wonders? Lobelia's certainly trying.]
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[Because that's all Lobelia will ever do, right? Everything will be disappointment to him. Even if he gets the upper hand, there's the keen sense of victory that this will only be a drop of water in the depths of a dried up well.]
[The vibrations strengthen - he can feel his teeth chattering in his mouth, but the muscles of his inhuman body become taut like a rope out of reflex. He's shaking, but he stands as stubborn and immutable as a statue. Maybe that's all he is. Even if he burns out, this body will remain, like a resolute reminder of the journey of Inferno.]
[He gives Lobelia the chance to eke out his frustration. One bite is met with no sound. The second one is met with a little sigh, a pleased sensation shooting down his spine with a new sense of warmth that moves in waves with the vibrations, as if he is a transmitter for signals making his cells come alive. Vergilius's hand moves away from the throat to grasp behind his head. Not to pull him away, or push him in, but to keep him stable.]
[The spoken phrases only make the shine of teeth in his mouth shine all the brighter when he smiles.]
How pitiful it is. Giving me what you want from me. [He whispers into the other's ear, husky and hot against the edge.] Jealousy is an ugly thing. But it suits you, doesn't it?
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So yeah. Fuck him, but in French. He can feel those thrills and shivers running through Vergilius with every bite he leaves on his skin, but two isn't enough. Three and four and five won't be enough.
Sitting up, Lobelia gives Vergilius one last chance to spare himself from utter destruction and is met with a with a big, bright, cocky smile instead. As they say in his homeland, Baise ta mère.]
You'll never be able to satisfy me, will you? That's such a shame, Vergilius. Really. I was hoping to keep you alive for a while longer.
[Some love just isn't meant to be. Constricting Vergilius' ribcage with a squeeze of his thighs, Lobelia throws a punch directly into his face. Γa c'est le vΓ©ritable amour.]
Ah, but you've made me happy nevertheless! Maybe the risk is worth the reward? What if I end you right here and now? How will you pleurer in your final moments?
[But it's not enough to injure Vergilius when he can't savor the rasp of his breath against his ear, so he leans back down to impress his teeth upon his neck, his shoulder, leaving a litany of ugly mottled bruises in his wake.]
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[As if to emphasize that point, here comes the fist to his face. If Lobelia were augmented like him, it could be a decent blow. As it is, it simply smarts. The punch is nothing to his words, because as Vergilius shakes his head and scowls slightly after the impact, its the implicit threat that makes his eyes narrow.]
[...Would he end him here and now? It's laughable. But then again, that power of his, the pain that had blossomed in his legs with a mere snap of his fingers...that's something to chew on as something approaching an actual threat. He hasn't seen all that Lobelia is capable of.]
[And Lobelia has not seen all that he is capable of.]
[The mouth descends on his throat and shoulder - he feels a little more stirring of heat course through his body, as much as he tries to restrain it. No. There will be no dying today. Not if he can help it.]
[He hisses into the other's ear, through gritted teeth.]
You're really going to give up that easily? Pathetic.
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[His head slams against the other's chest with the strength of an iron hammer, the audible cracking of a few ribs singing in the air.]
[Vergilius wastes no time. His head drawn back, he's attacking the other's mouth with renewed gusto, one hand pressing against the small of the other's back to pull him flush against him, heated skin against heated skin.]
[There will be no pleading today.]
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Vergilius doesn't allow it to happen.
Such a spry old thing, springing forward like a bullet propelled from a gun, and the rest eludes him. His vision goes white, black, then red, the moments in between silent until the sound of his breaking ribs shatters that momentary reverie. Suddenly, it's oh so loud, the silence filled with so much noise that Lobelia can barely keep track of it all.
At some point, he called out. Yelled. Screamed. Cried. Beyond that, the splintering of several ribs echoes on Lobelia's head, the heave of blood past his lips from the internal punctures those splintered bones and cartilage have resulted in. Each half-breath taken is a stolen, painful thing, reeking of iron and tasting just as sickeningly sweet.
He's never been hurt like this before, his victims so easily subdued that none could lay so much as a finger on him. Pain this severe makes it impossible to think, to speak, sputtering blood in between their kiss. It's all he can do, coughing and heaving against Vergilius' lips, but he doesn't draw away. Even if Vergilius allowed him to, he wouldn't.
Instead, Lobelia's shaking hands come up to drag along Vergilius' back, promising him yet more scars, more bruises, more spilt blood, while he moans in agony into their kiss. This is it, isn't it? This has to be it. Happiness. Joy. Purpose. And if it isn't... no. Right now, the last thing Lobelia will consider is how empty and joyless his life truly is.]
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[It's something he'll never show. But as much as Lobelia is choking on his own spit and blood after cries of pain, Vergilius is choking in his own way, too. He's always been choking. He doesn't know when the guilt started in his life. He doesn't know when he started looking at himself with self-pity as just another cog in the City, and how that fact made the anger sit in his bones like an insidious poison seeping to his core. Violence is his being. And here he perpetuates it, like nothing else, because it is what he is.]
[He is what he always will be.]
[It then comes of no surprise, in the reckless capture of lips again and again, almost threatening to steal oxygen, that he's hard. He isn't one to enjoy inflicting pain - weapons typically don't. But there's something about this, about the sudden shiver and moan of the man in his grip, that makes him feel like he's descending into a sort of madness. He tastes blood on his tongue. He wants it to seep into his soul. It isn't about pain, no, he thinks. Not quite.]
[It's about destruction.]
[He finds his hips jutting upwards in the tangling of their bodies, his own groan singing from the inside of his chest. It wasn't enough. It feels like enough now.]
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His own life is finite, painfully finite, and this agony serves as a very potent reminder of that. Some day, death will find him too. Some day, he'll suffer every agony he's ever inflicted on others until he's experienced all their pain in full. And one day, he'll die the same death Vergilius will too.
He's found it, hasn't he? Finally, finally, finally. Death will be his happiness, his salvation. The only people who ever truly made him happy were Papa and Maman, and he'll meet them again too in the great beyond. Surely, surely, surely.
But none of that matters now. The pain is too distracting, the only thing coming close to it being the throb of Vergilius' arousal against his hips. It's mutual, Lobelia's hand coming down not to focus on his own pleasure but to take them both in his palm and messily jerk at their lengths. A shame he can't stop rasping and wheezing long enough to call Vergilius out for his fucked up kinks, having never shied away from hypocrisy.]
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[He never will. Of course its a possibility. Of course, he's not some grand immortal, unable to be touched. He's a scarred, aging man whose life can still be cut short even as powerful as he is. But it never weighs on his mind. As long as he is alive. that's all that matters.]
[He will keep moving forward, to the point where his breath runs out.]
[The hand shot down between them down below to grasp both of them makes his breath hitch and grunt. Vergilius tilts his head to press deep kiss after deep kiss to his jawline, over his neck, finally just losing himself a little in the sensation of it all. Another jerk of the hips against Lobelia's hand comes with a hiss as his fingers snake up the other's spine, pressure a little too hard to be comfortable.]
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What else could love be but two people who understand each other so wholly? Maybe Vergilius understands their connection now, unable to disentangle himself now that he's swallowed his own tail in pursuit of that destruction. Lobelia moves into it β every bite, every hard press of calloused fingers β in search of his own demise, exhaling pleasure and agony in equal measure.
Still, he isn't done yet. He has one thing left to live for, and that thing is peppering him with kisses that ooze the same sweetness as dried blood. Lobelia's struggling to hold up his own weight, giving up on the venture in favor of tangling his fingers in Vergilius' hair and tugging his bangs out of the way. What do those crimson eyes look like now, he wonders? Through the haze of exertion and tears, all Lobelia can see is how brightly they glow. Belle, now more than ever.]
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[He's known love. Maybe not love in forms like this, but love from family, love from friends, love from children.]
[Is this love...? He hardly thinks so. If it is, though, maybe that's what he deserves. Maybe this is the weight of his karma finally coming home to roost. Maybe in the end, he'll lose himself like sand in the waters of a raging river, never to be put together again.]
[Lobelia moves aside his bangs, and of course, the eponymous red gaze is what greets him, glow almost swallowing the outline of the eyes they come from. A gaze to fray whatever it stares at, and here, it almost stares at nothing and everything. It blazes too hot, and yet there's something cold about it at the same time, a paradoxical lantern at the bottom of the deep dark ocean.]
[The eyes flit to Lobelia's face as he continues to let his body take the reins, his chest pressing against the battered and broken ribs as if to rub it in. More pain. More agony.]
[Welcome to his world, Lobelia.]
Ah...
[A light little noise, contrasting with the reckless movement of hips and abdomen below, throbbing with need.]
[Perhaps a part of it seems desperate, eager for that release, and knowing it won't be enough. And knowing it is what he deserves.]
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Love changed him, surely, receptive to every touch Vergilius lays upon his body. Rough hands on his bruised and battered ribs sway him, leave him writhing, hissing through his teeth and clenching them tight in an effort not to let them chatter.
So much pain. So much agony. Vergilius rewards him in spades, letting Lobelia know nothing else so long as his hands are on him. As if to return that favor, he catches that needy sigh and focuses his efforts on the tip of Vergilius' cock. He'll hit his own limit soon enough, he's sure, but he needn't touch himself to get there. This unrelenting pain is more than enough.]
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[In the end, Lobelia is a broken, pathetic thing. And he is here to make sure that stays the case, isn't he?]
[The other's efforts on him get him what he wants - there's a sudden gasp, and then a different sort of sigh when he feels the heat flare and tip over, coating the other's abdomen with a new sort of heat. He finally signs the whole thing with a bite to the other's shoulder, not hard enough to break skin, but a way to hum into it in a pale imitation of the other's power to buzz through his body.]
[He could care less if Lobelia follows after him, at this point.]
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It was that final bite that sent him over the tipping point, Lobelia dimly realizes, and manages a huff of amusement when he can't manage a laugh. The vibrations snaking their way through Vergilius' flesh gradually dissipate to nothing, the hazy aftermath of release something vaguely pleasurable.
It feels as if he's stolen this moment from Vergilius, and that feels right, denying this man happiness. All the same, he can't deny that they've found their middle ground in destruction and pain. For once, perhaps it's alright in indulge in this pale imitation of mutuality.]
...Quelle pagaille. Even you are not entirely impartial.
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[As he slowly lets himself ease his breath back to stability, he realizes something is missing. The vibrations have eased off. The little aftershocks and tremors moving through his spine and out his limbs. How odd, it feels, that he almost misses the buzzing feeling. Here, he is again reminded of this sinewed, resolute husk of a body.]
[It almost feels empty, but then again, isn't that what he's used to? Isn't that what he deserves?]
[He draws back with glimmering eyes, finally aiming a scowl at the other.]
...Whatever.
[Irritation comes rising up like an old friend clapping a hand on the shoulder. He pulls his hands back to himself, but he isn't fully removing himself just yet.]
[The pale imitation stands at least for now. A dot. A moment.]
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Neither of them have moved far, Lobelia lying back on the mattress, breaths scattered. That scowl can't coax laughter out of Lobelia when laughter is oh so painful, but it does coax him into a thin, genuine smile.]
Are you satisfied?
[There's no mockery in Lobelia's tone, no insincerity. That's odd coming from him, but that endlessly deep, empty feeling cuts deep. Hollowed out, he very much doubts anything can fill him, but that pale imitation of mutuality comes close enough.]
You could kill me now if you wanted to. What's stopping you?
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[What would come as an acerbic barb as a statement usually now comes as something dimly stated. A candle, flickering in the dark. He should already know the answer. There is no true satisfaction to hold onto, and even if there was, he would pull away from it himself.]
[That question also echoes with what he has asked Lobelia before. Are you happy?]
[He threads his hand through his own bangs to flip them back, mouth pulled in a tight grimace. He glances towards the blossoming bruises on Lobelia's chest. Flowers for him, in their own way. And yes. He could kill him. It would be so easy. And yet...]
Mm. Call me stubborn.
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[And he knows it was. There's no happiness to be found outside of the raw, cutting edge of his pain, that sharp throb in his ribcage all that remains of it. As with all things, even this happiness will fade away into nothing.
How very poetic. How very sad.
With a thin sigh, Lobelia's eyes travel down to the mottled mess of bruises on his ribcage, the rapidly drying aftermath of their little tryst. It's almost comical how much he misses that initial impact, the feeling of being wanted when he's never been wanted before, but he don't delude himself into thinking it's him Vergilius wants. Even that is a delusion too far for Lobelia.]
You've figured it out, haven't you? Non... You've been saying so since the start. Nothing in life will make me happy. Not for anything more than a few fleeting moments at a time. The only ones who truly made me happy are long gone.
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[Perhaps in an earlier time he would hold sympathy for what he is hearing. But the man he is now is someone who has lost everything, and tried to dry up any shred of goodwill in his chest in an attempt to continue moving. No more good connections with others. People should always be held at a distance. They don't need him, he doesn't need them. That's the way it should be.]
[The well of his karma will claim no more lives than his own.]
[He lets a breath whistle out between his teeth. His hand reaches out, splays against that wounded chest. Does Lobelia have a heart? Or is it a void underneath? He wonders.]
[Two monsters, indeed.]
You're like an addict chasing a high. Pushing a stone up a hill, and you'll never reach the top. [He tilts his head, his earring catching a little light from the movement.] Who even made you happy? A lover? A friend? Family?
[Imagining Lobelia truly caring for anyone seems like a fantasy.]
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